okay, since it's the last day of feb, on a brighter note, cousin eugene & i went to catch slumdog millionaire! :D cousin eugene is my most awesome cousin, for the record! and the only cousin i actually bother and want to meet outside of the family gatherings we have =) haha, the show is really awesome!(: i think it's a very touching & at the same time, realistic show cos it paints a very real picture of mumbai that we might not be able to see all the time. gogo catch it!! :D i think the cinema was pretty crowded when we watched, cos everyone was like, waiting for the oscars to be over, before deciding if slumdog millionaire is worth watching, just like me at least^^

hahah, just slightly more than one more week & i wouldnt have to sneak into nc16 shows anymore ;)
whoopedo! i hope to make it a good one with cleo though(:

heh.
(:

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okay

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to say
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late



Broken Strings by James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado(:
Sounds so bittersweet.

Leah has strong convictions about lots of things, and while she strives to be truthful and direct, she can sometimes be less than 100% honest, and may tell someone a "little white lie" rather than risk hurting their feelings. Relationships are very important to Leah, and since she tends to take things personally, she can easily be disappointed by others.

A natural helper, Leah tends to worry about other people's problems that can make her feel sad. Although Leah can be competitive, she prefers to work cooperatively with people. She doesn't usually like to argue and is good at complimenting people when they do something she appreciates.

The personality test from the career counselling webbie.
Lol, I feel so 100% Leah-ish.

But the overall personality test wasn't too accurate =(

Tgif.

Today, I learnt what it was like to have accidents cropping out unexpectedly,
Today, I learnt what it felt like to have much trust placed in you (& realizing how much I've missed it so),
Today, I learnt what it felt like to be all trembly & scared, but still having to stay strong,
Today, I learnt that it is possible to shed tears over someone you hardly know about,
Today, I have seen what is true bravery (& know that I had so much more to learn and catch up on from her),
Today, I learnt the wonders of a simple touch & words of comfort and of concern,
Today, I experienced once again how it feels like when there's so much you wanna say and pour out to, but there's no one there to listen.
Today, I realize the heart just ain't in it.

The above pretty much summed up today.
Which I thought was a really bad way to end the week, which could otherwise be pretty happy, since I didn't have to stay up much to complete hwk, cos this week is considered really very free compared to our hectic Week7. And however lousy it was previously, I still shaved off half a minute for 6 rounds today as compared to my timing for 5 rounds last week! And Jibee and I have been able to play more basketball this week (and I'm glad to say I've improved!)

But, thank God, that both of them are much better now. There's much to thank God about, especially since we were so near NUH today. Thank God he didn't panic and stayed clear & calm.
Thank God, thank God.


Disappointments aplenty. I know that I should just shrug them off & just move on as per norm, but it's precisely cos it's you , you and you that makes them all so hard to swallow.
I think I'm losing faith.
I wonder what happens if ever one day, I come to a realization that it just ain't worth the effort I put in.
I just hope that day never comes.
Cos I never thought that it would, at least not for y'all.

cos nobody's here when I call your name/

I think I'm feeling lonesome.
Not lonely. Just lonesome.
Maybe, pray someday, that'll change.

aaron & i just came to a harsh realization><
fingers crossed.

a whole new meaning to two lost birdies.
hah.

what's there left for us to do/
nothing, but to fight, -
and make things better than before

hah! i don't know if i'm sloooow or what, but i finally changed my msn skin to tatty teddy skin! and it looks sho cute <3
hahah, especially when you do alt-tab when you're trying to change windows, there's this cute tatty teddy with a heart icon! :D (okay, my computing skills are a bit lacking, so i don't know how to express the icon properly! but i guess you'd get what i mean :D)

anywhoo, who's up for going shopping to get a new backpack with me! :D my shoulders are starting to ache from using only one side, for the past, like, 2 years? =(


leave the lights on, baby
cos i'll be coming home tonight.

disappointed.

we can fuss we can fight
long as everything's alright between us
before we go sleep,

no i don't wanna go to bed mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed mad at me

baby, can we make up now,
cos i can't sleep through the pain

never really listened to neyo's songs, but i thought this song is really catchy! haha.
i was up last night, & i recalled the last time i felt this way was when i was having a heated argument with someone, who for the record, wasn't my boyfriend whatsoever. but still, the feelings & sentiments from this song seemed pretty apt either way, cos i remembered crying & hoping that we'd resolve everything within that night. thankfully, we did.(:

happy valentine's day to all out there!(:

thanks loads for jean's chocs, cleo's luscious lips & sweet note, timo's sweet note & rose, chua's choc pack (which was totally heavenly cos dark chocs are LOVELY<3), gel's pretty prezz & GELlybeans in the boxx (i was pleasantly surprised by the picture!!) ^^

for cca ytd, we had to go to bowen for a friendly match. on the bus, it somehow reminded me of yr one when i had to go to bowen & somehow, the loneliness just crept up on me & truth be told, i felt like shit, even though i cldn't figure why. after the friendly match yesterday, i went back to school & immediately rushed for a quick shower cos cleo & i wanted to go to prata house for dinner! hahah, we talk ALOT on the way there & whilst eating, which subsequently cheered me up loads! :D hahah, the lovely kaya prata is a must try!! :D

then cos by the time we walked back, our parents were not out yet, so we decided to take a night stroll around the track(: then after like, 4-5 rounds, suddenly a voice rang out "want to smoke?" it kinda scared us cos we thought we were alone!! and we talked pretty loud throughout lor, thank goodness it wasn't anyth too scandalous LOL. turned out to be jaryl, chongwei, stanley and some other random ppl which we couldn't make out in the dark! then they were made to do some random dares with us, like walking with their chests bare-.-

as for tday, i had a pretty enjoyable time! though i think i was really full after the Manhattan fish lunch!! D: haha! we wanted to catch "slumdog millionaire" cos we thought it'd be pretty cool to try out a bollywood-like film for once & the fact that it was nominated for many oscar awards & given a 4.5/5 rating made it pretty attractive! butbut decided it was too costly cos it's like, 10$ on a sat, when we could always catch it on a weekday =)

heh, then after that, we spontaneously decided to head to udders cos i had a craving for ice creamie suddenly! it's REALLY AWESOME!! i tried two flavours tday, & i'm so wanting to go back there SOONSOONSOON :D hahah, cleo was arnd the area that time, though i didnt get to meet her aww! so near yet so far =(

& now it's time for rushing out hwk + projects boo D:<


xoxo,
whaipeng

then again, maybe it's how the world works,
the people who care don't always matter
& the people who matter don't always care.
alas, alas.

always close enough to touch,
but never quite close enough to hold,
& it's enough to break your heart

excerpt of a story frm my one of my all-time favourite authors, nicholas sparks! How very true, aye? Heh. It's a pity that his stories are always very tragic :(

Heh, had mentoring dinner ytd(: mr yang was cool enough to treat us to yummy italian dinner & I trudged home wet & pretty late Haha, but I guess it was pretty enjoyable, albeit there were a few sore points -coughs-


but you will never know how it feels like,

it doesn't feel like what it's supposed to be,
maybe it's just not meant to be.

macarons are yummy :D
tried them for the first time tday, cos my friend told me it was nice & since there's an offer for them (1$ per piece) in the mth of feb, i got them frm bakerzin!
i tried lemon & coffee, and the filling is totally rich :D the lemon one reminded me of the jam nigel, zikeng & i bought for aussie! which i alrdy finished cos it's really nice :D
everyone shld take advantage of the offer & buy more this month!!! :D any kind souls who go to vivo/JP must get some back for moi =p

whoo then by some coincidence, boonsiong was there at JP too! but pity, we didnt get to bump into him hahah! i guess it's cos JP is like frigging huge! :D i think the diy cake thingy is really a novel & interesting idea! we shld do it tgth someday^^


loves,
whaipeng

counting towards & on, for more/

ever had a bad week, and you're so desperately looking forward to something that would turn everything that has been so lousy, into something good, even if it's just for a day?
yet when it was supposed to happen, it didn't turn out to be as great as you thought it would be.

yeah, face it baby, that always happens.



well honestly, i thought it would be the case in the early afternoon of the day... >:(
but i guess it wasn't the case for tday!
cos i definitely enjoyed myself loads today(:
heh, next week's gna be a long lousy week again, i foresee, but well, at least there's something to look forward to(:

was it something that i did,
was it something that i said,
or was it the combination of both that did me wrong;

jibee taught me how to play minesweeper!(:
honestly, before her, i've nvr known how to play the game-.- tbh, i always thought that the aim of the game was to make it explode! LOL. though i've always wondered at the sad face when they happened-.-"

anyway weekends are finally coming(: thankfully! this week's been a crazy one. (though i think the worst has yet to come! D:)

piggies! what's the plans for this sat manzx!! hahah. if not, i'm so gna go out & enjoy myself either ways, if time permits after maths proj(:

stargazing this night away.
wishing i could find the answers i seek, up in the sky.

tday was pretty awesome B-)
after a really short day of lessons, i went to see mr ku for consultation since my maths is really shitty D:

then after that, GL & i spontaneously agreed to go down to queensway since i had to get my boots & he was nice and awesome (and of course patient) enough to accompany me :D

like a girl i am, i took awesomely long to choose the best deal for my boots, shinguard & socks :D in the end, i decided to start low and use cheaper stuff first since i'm nowhere near pro :D got everyth for just over 50$(: got black&silver shoes, with black shiguards & black umbro socks :D omg, so black themed haha. i rather neon yellow or something bright actually, but not enough $$$ :D and shldn't be too prominent, later very malu since i suck bigtime HAHA! :D

then after that we went to subway for tea & catch up with each other(: since we hv not met up, since forever?

whee cityvibe (the name of the new clementi mall) has subway! :D and aaron pointed out that there's sakae too :D awesome, loads of that during our hostel year :]

oh and yeah, for the record, i just joined gal's soccer :] and yeah i know, it's totally unexpected hahah, even pan chuen was like, you joined soccer!? haha, but i think it's gonna turn out pretty good :] the people there are really nice & outgoing! :] guess i've loads to learn frm them :]

BUT FOR NOW, back to awful masteringphysucks! =(

xoxo,
whaipeng

was i way too honest?

I found this song pretty meaningful(:
Gotta be Somebody by Nickelback(:

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just arent enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, its just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You cant give up (when you're looking for)
A diamond in the rough (Because you never know)
When it shows up (make sure you're holding on)
Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Nobody wants to be the last one there (what your looking for)
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares (you never know)
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere (start holding on)
There's gotta be somebody for me out there