hoho it's been awhile since i've blogged proper on my blog.
{i reached this realization as i was looking through my previous posts from previous blogs and archives hurhur.}
more often than not, i've left the rantings to my tumblr or for people who are sad & poor thing enough to be by me when i'm feeling upset or angry.

last friday was the last session of cca. haha i've officially gone through a semester of soccer! haha i find it extremely enjoyable y'know & many a times, i wished i've made the change earlier. but then again, sometimes i feel like i'm bad at it, and it's a lil unnerving especially since i'm a year four already, yet in the cca itself, i'm regarded as a puny junior hurhur. but i really wanna improve and make it better.

somehow this semester is ending so fast. exams are in two weeks, yet we're still being spammed with homework, essays which are seemingly never ending especially when you're taking double humans + econs, projects yada yada. i wonder why time flies so fast this year, is it cos we're so busy that we can hardly take a breather? yet, i know that by blogging now, it means that there's time what. it's just a matter of how we manage it, and whether we want to manage it well.

i feel more sober compared to last year, but with sobriety, the pain ain't dulled and when it gets sharp & acute, sometimes i just don't wanna feel.

but thankfully, these days, i mostly spend time with jibee and recently, nelson. and honestly, i feel much better, especially with jibee, because she allows me to talk and express myself freely. yet because we know each other for the past few years already, i tend to not have to "self-censor" & i even confide in her cos i know she's pretty trustworthy^^

yet for some people, there's this distance which i don't really like & it's making me kinda sad. i just hope it's cos of the lack of time we've this crazy sem & that things will go back to norm soon enough. i know i know, there are apologies & promises to make up for it and all, but sometimes i just wish that we get to just sit down & talk our heart out. it's been a long time since we've done that.

so anywhoo, cross country is next week! haha i'm kinda nervous yet, at the same time, i know since i've not been training, there's no point being nervous! (even though i still am, lol) haha. just run for the heck of it. hope can have some fun after the event!(:

oh and yay, my sis' dance concert at dunman is coming up, and hoho, i get to meet awesome berber too^^ i wish he never have to go back to hongkong! =( him and his family have been such great family friends for the past few years.


enough of rambling for the day, yay!


love,
whaiwhai ;)