Of all the people i ever know of & got close to, you're one of the very few i ever regretted knowing. I should have left it as it was, long time ago. Cos at least then, I had a huge amount of respect for you. Both of you.

why do that?
what else has been said?
selfish much?

what the hell.
it's still such a grey area, and i'm still being such a fool.
but finally, i've learnt.

To AARON,


Here's to the times when I was such a wreck,
And you were there hearing me out, not telling me what to do,


Here's to the times when there's no one to go to,
And yet you showed me the way & even stayed through,


Here's to the long phone calls we had,
They always manage to cheer me up cos you never fail to say the right words,

Here's to the weekly wednesday lunches & tt time we have this term,
It's one of the very few things I can look forward to,

Here's to the times we had disagreements,
And you are still as forgiving as ever & we said our sorrys & goodnights and everything became fine the next day,

Here's to the times we still sat together in class last year,
And we talked, gossiped, play cards amongst so many other wild things we did,

Here's to the times when we laughed till we cried,
There is really none like you who can make me laugh that hard,

Here's to the times where we were so frantic (especially before gavel hoho),
Yet just having you beside me being optimistic and making jokes certainly makes the situation less scary and more light-hearted,

Here's to that classic maths class,
What the end result was to the poor thingys still hold true(:

Here's to the friendship we have,
It's like no other and there's so much more I can say about the memories we've had all this time,
But those are not important cos there's so much that's yet to come(:

& Finally here's to YOU,
My bestest best bestie, hubby, 老公，弟弟, the king of my heart (you'll find out why soon enough^^),


HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)
You're finally 15!



♥

Sometimes love just ain't enough by Patty Smithe

Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No



pretty lovely song(: thanks bs! other nice songs i've been listening to these days are We Cry and The Man Who Can't be Moved (both by The Script). Hahah those three songs have lyrics which are pretty meaningful(:


so anywhoo, tday went pretty well(: after history, seo youn kindly loaned me her laptop and i slacked for one hour waiting for ron. omg, we played Word Challenge on facebook &&&&&& i'm so proud to say I SHATTERED MY RECORD OF 6000+++!!! and it's currently 9971 now i think, and even though it's a soooooooo little compared to my cousin, cleo & cheryl chong D:
then, rahul, weiren & utkarsh decided to be gay and went to youtube and showed us some russel peters clips. and we ended up laughing & an hour FLEW past._.

then after that, ron & i rushed to westmall for sakae!! LOL, it was like a year ago, celebrating his bday before exams._. but that was with cheeying hahah. so anyway, sakae added so much freebies for their buffet!!! to make it so much more attractive hahah(: at first we used the computer system, then after waiting for like 209309574354035 minutes, we cldn't stand it, so we decided to ask the waitress what's wrong. then we found out that the computer system was not working that day._. grrr.
so we ordered alot through her, and it was kinda embarrassing luh D: hahah but who cares XD but they sort of jumbled up my orders yknow :( and the sushi i ordered never came. oh oh and one of the freebies was a complimentary red plate! needless to say, we both ordered salmon sashimi =) wowow, what a difference from the normal thin pieces they use in their sushi._. then we decided to be adventurous and ordered this new salmon dish! it turned out to be yucky D: cos it was like fried salmon which was chilled._. aaron's face was CLASSIC when he first tried it :D aww, too bad no pictures that time :D cos there was this policy of no wastage of food, we had to finish up the yucky salmon dish. so we decided to play a word game, and the loser had to eat a piece of salmon. sadly i lost like 3-1 D: then in the end, when it was almost finished, we decided to just hide the remaining pieces under those random pieces of lettuce and cucumber shreds hehe :D kinda reminded me of the time cleo, her sister and i went to sakae^^
ohoh and there was this additional strawberry smiles? LOL the guy cldn't enunciate properly and we took like 5 times before we understood what he meant. in that instant, it reminded me of the batman spoof video gee =/ and it was super sour in the end._. peach mochi is still da best(:

anyway, we were greedy piggies and we went to subway afterwards to get cookies!!!!(: aaron got three for me hoho :D and i realized he shldn't have gotten us three each, cos we were sho full!!


so yay, tday went so well(: and let's hope everything will go well for the days to come!! especially since exams are coming D:



love,
whaipeng(:

p.s. go on guessing what it is ;)


it's kinda scary that it seems that everyone knows that their direction in life, while i can't seem to figure it out. and i don't even know if i can make it for the direction i wanna go. i feel so lost._. but yeah i saw the pm of one of the apcg friends! "God will make a way even when there seem to be none" how true indeed. i just hope everything will work out fine(: and i realized that i won't ever regret my decision whatever it is, if i just make good in what i chose & put in the effort for it.
but i'm still lost.

i've made so many mistakes within the past year, fell from grace, learnt them the hard way by picking myself up right from rock bottom. twice, it has come back to the same old thing i've always been wanting and looking out for.

some things just don't change; just like how patience has never been my strongest virtue (and i don't foresee it to be anytime soon), you never do change either.

and here i am wondering, if it's a good or bad thing.

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