touch and go;

2009-05-13T03:11:00.000-07:00

i was feeling bored, so i decided to jump right back to wordpress again, cos i still feel the "lock-enabled" posts option is very attractive and somehow, i just need some simplicity and cleancut-ness in my life now ;)

http://www.scriptedrama.wordpress.com

cheers.

2009-04-30T11:11:00.001-07:00

2am, and the rain is falling,
Here we are, at the crossroads once again.

I don't know where we went wrong,
And why we seemed to have grown apart,
But I just thought you should know,
I really miss you so.

2009-04-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was totally awesome! I was feeling happy cos Nelly and I finished UNAS, like finally! :D Haha, we decided to rush ours out within the last few hours cos we felt that the bonus marks given were too much to forgo :D Haha. Some gross and disgusting stuff happened in the night, and I will neglect to talk about it, I just hope it will get resolved or I think I should approach a teacher about it..

So anywhoo, I woke up late in the morning given that I only went to bed at 3.30am :( But after getting through the relatively short day, I took a bus down to Vivo and met BERBER :D Hahah, we had an awesome time together watching the movie. We chickened out in the end & didn't watch Friday the 13th! D: Hahah, but I thought it'd be better that way since if I did watch, I'd end up watching the whole show through my jacket :D We had an extremely filling dinner at Carl's Junior though :B At night, I was up like almost every hour cos I was supposed to stay up with bb while he watched his soccer :D I ended up hallucinating about smses he didn't send (some of those that I thought I read were actually figments of my imagination, WOWOW) but I'm pretty sure he did call to wake me up? Unless it's some ghost-.-

Okay, today was the cross country day! Hahah, it ended up raining, like wow-.- disappointments aplenty. So anywhoo, after randomly walking around AMK Hub, I went home and took a damn good nap okay! And woke up in time to meet Maxx :D Haha, we ended up going to CWP luh, since I felt that it was neither here nor there if we went to town :( Hahah, so after that since we were both feeling hungry, we went to Pastamania to eat(: Hahah, great chat over dinner, & I told him about the disgusting gross thing that happened T.T oh and I think I found the bag I'd wanna get! Hahah, hope mum gets for me tomorrow(: It's Maxx's bag but in red or hopefully, the nice shade of green :B I wanted to get something funky, then I realized, I should probably go for functional heh. And at that time, incidentally, Jean messaged me about the bag Ash chose for her HAHAH!! :D Hope we both have backpacks on Monday heh XD

Oh, then since we had time on hand, we walked around the entire CWP and Civic Centre and Woodlands Lib. We saw a unicycle :D And of course, the most awesome thing is that Maxx lives like, a few blocks away from me whoo~ I can practically wave to him from my bedroom window (riiiight :D) And I shall proudly proclaim that Maxx has good fashion taste yay(:

Okaybai, time to do homework + revision! Glad that I had great fun in celebrations of the end of projects!!! :D (this is some lame excuse made up by me duh) and hooboy, can't wait for exams to be over and done with. For liberation, baby!

Wow, this is an awesomely long post. Been a long while.

Love,
Whaiwhai

P.S. Goodluck berber on your scripture reading tomorrow: )

I don't see the point of your saying sorry,
When you never really do change
And instead, you do it over and over again.

NEWSFLASH!

2009-04-27T04:00:00.000-07:00

NEWSFLASH!
jibee, a.k.a greater mind has set up a new blog!!

http://www.greatermind.wordpress.com

and just for laughs, i should prolly set up another wordpress -- www.physicslover.wordpress.com
:D
just to spark my interest in physics and to pay more attention to baby :D (ref my previous few posts if you have absolutely no inkling on what i'm talking bout :D)

love,
whaiwhai ;)

it's been awhile,

2009-04-26T01:02:00.000-07:00

hoho it's been awhile since i've blogged proper on my blog.
{i reached this realization as i was looking through my previous posts from previous blogs and archives hurhur.}
more often than not, i've left the rantings to my tumblr or for people who are sad & poor thing enough to be by me when i'm feeling upset or angry.

last friday was the last session of cca. haha i've officially gone through a semester of soccer! haha i find it extremely enjoyable y'know & many a times, i wished i've made the change earlier. but then again, sometimes i feel like i'm bad at it, and it's a lil unnerving especially since i'm a year four already, yet in the cca itself, i'm regarded as a puny junior hurhur. but i really wanna improve and make it better.

somehow this semester is ending so fast. exams are in two weeks, yet we're still being spammed with homework, essays which are seemingly never ending especially when you're taking double humans + econs, projects yada yada. i wonder why time flies so fast this year, is it cos we're so busy that we can hardly take a breather? yet, i know that by blogging now, it means that there's time what. it's just a matter of how we manage it, and whether we want to manage it well.

i feel more sober compared to last year, but with sobriety, the pain ain't dulled and when it gets sharp & acute, sometimes i just don't wanna feel.

but thankfully, these days, i mostly spend time with jibee and recently, nelson. and honestly, i feel much better, especially with jibee, because she allows me to talk and express myself freely. yet because we know each other for the past few years already, i tend to not have to "self-censor" & i even confide in her cos i know she's pretty trustworthy^^

yet for some people, there's this distance which i don't really like & it's making me kinda sad. i just hope it's cos of the lack of time we've this crazy sem & that things will go back to norm soon enough. i know i know, there are apologies & promises to make up for it and all, but sometimes i just wish that we get to just sit down & talk our heart out. it's been a long time since we've done that.

so anywhoo, cross country is next week! haha i'm kinda nervous yet, at the same time, i know since i've not been training, there's no point being nervous! (even though i still am, lol) haha. just run for the heck of it. hope can have some fun after the event!(:

oh and yay, my sis' dance concert at dunman is coming up, and hoho, i get to meet awesome berber too^^ i wish he never have to go back to hongkong! =( him and his family have been such great family friends for the past few years.

enough of rambling for the day, yay!

love,
whaiwhai ;)

2009-04-19T04:15:00.000-07:00

haha, as i was searching for pictures for my physics photo project, i chanced upon those pictures i took in aussie last year! and i realized that some look really cool :D

that tender moment in the picture from previous post was taken whilst we were exploring sydney at night! it's low res (students under ms cheng should get this =p) with lousy lighting but i found it pretty romantic leh! i was like, a stalker cos i kept on trying to take their pictures and at the same time, having the sydney harbour bridge and the sydney opera house in the background :D gosh, time really flies doesn't it :(

i shall post up more pictures when i'm free-er :D
and perhaps do a proper update^^
busy weeks ahead. must stay focused and strong. jiayous to all!

tatas,
whaipeng

but, what's there to believe in?

2009-04-19T04:06:00.000-07:00

Huddled together beneath the starless night,
Faces illuminated only by the city lights,
You said “I can make you believe that what we have is all we’d ever need.”
But I will always remember this in the years to come;
You never did look into my eyes as you murmured those words.

2009-04-19T02:40:00.000-07:00

disgusted.

you see the hate that they're serving on a platter
so what are we gonna have- desert or disaster?

2009-04-08T07:53:00.000-07:00

;))

2009-04-07T06:39:00.000-07:00

somehow now reminds me of last year. history repeating itself?

hell no, please. i won't be able to stand it the second time. stay strong, stay strong, even when everything around threatens to fall apart.

but somehow, i'm slowly losing faith. in you, in me, & everything else.

2009-04-04T06:19:00.000-07:00

thanks =)

2009-04-03T08:31:00.000-07:00

i got over the feeling of letting the team down, cos i believe i really did my best alrdy as an impromptu goalkeeper for tday's match. really, kudos to the team for making it right, otherwise i seriously wlda felt even much more guilty.. and much thanks to mr malsoh for always encouraging regardless.

but i suppose what was the most upsetting today was the feeling of how when you need them so badly, yet all you get is a busy tone. that, i don't really know how to get over it, just yet.

2009-04-02T07:23:00.000-07:00

saw this whilst surfing around.
gosh, i think this is really sweet haha!
(:

**
trying to make sense of this life.

2009-04-01T04:31:00.001-07:00

i yearn for a hug. i think i've been holding up pretty well alone.
but right now, i just want a hug, from someone who means it, well & true.

2009-03-26T02:23:00.000-07:00

i wonder if i spoke a lil too soon..
disappointed bout how things are working out.
i just hope it's not too late.

2009-03-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

just for the record, the prev post was addressed to PHYSiCS >:( which I totally dislike, though I'd hv to mug like crap tnight for it :(

Heh, it's midweek alrdy! Two more papers to go :o and unfortunately these two papers are the ones I've not touched any of these, like wow.

Anywhoo, who's up for celebrations & hanging out on sat!? :D silly aaron has his ebil music stuff nooo. Hahah, can't wait to see their opera though :D

Ahh, *smacks myself* I shldnt be thinking bout going out now lol! :( wish this week wld pass fastfastfast :(

a letter to beloved physics
2009-03-24T21:39:00.000-07:00
Dear Physics baby darldarl,

It's been slightly more than 4 years since we first met. Throughout this period of ups & downs (though admittedly it's been much more downs than ups), I still don't get you. I still can't understand you, & it's frustrating me loads cos now, I don't even have the inclination or want to pay you any attention no more.

I wish I could just dump you & get over with life. But I suppose you don't go away that easily.
And now, I'm loving you less & less each day.maybe I just never did love you right from the start

2009-03-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

I've changed,
That I admit.

But so have you.

Tell me,
What can I do to make this better?
Cos damnit, I'm trying.
But it's just never good enough for you.
I am just never good enough for you.

2009-03-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

just a short post for tday since I'm posting w my hp(:

tday was pretty fun & awesome! I went to vivo earlier part of the morning & plonked down at the basement to mug while waiting for GL. when he came, we went to carl's jnr & had an extremely filling lunch, like omg. we kept getting refills & I think we sat there for close to 3 hrs? :o haha. Had a nice time chatting & catching up though (:

So anywhoo, all the best nxt wed! And tata, I'm off o mugging le (:

2009-03-17T00:08:00.000-07:00

it's a sleepy tuesday afternoon, and i'm home now(:
whoo, after this post, i shall go take a short nap or smth teehee.
i've quite a few activities planned for the nxt few days, maybe a lil too many, shall cut down on those that are not as impt...
i've been slacking for the past few days wow :o and totally not caring bout the test spam weeks nxt wk :(

bam, it's alrdy march!
heh i think this term one really passed fast.
i think things are going pretty smoothly, albeit not without the occasional emotional bumps.
acads-wise & cca-wise still have room for muchmuchmuch more improvement, but at least, i ain't not disappointing those that matter, like last year.

one of my teachers say i look happier these days as compared to last year.
hmm, do i? haha i don't really feel so though, yknow.
i think while towards certain stuff, i've become less emotionally attached and bothered. but there's many other stuff that's bothering & upsetting me, though those don't get resolved overnight.

ytd, after mr wu's chinese consultation, i went out with cleo! we took a mrt down to plaza sing haha(: we missed the timing for the earlier show, all thanks to dong zzz but nvm, so we had a quick slurpy lunch at shilin's. we ate the chicken thingy and a bowl of meesua which felt really good cos it was warm & cos we were totally hungry!
haha then we went to catch a show "Departures"!! haha, this show is totally worth the oscar it got, trust me =) the whole cinema was filled & throughout the show, there was people sniffling all the way. and needless to say, cleo and i were one of the weepies :*) it was really a thought provoking show, though i felt that the ending was a lil abrupt, though at least there was closure(: cleo and i were like discussing on how it could have been expanded haha!
but heh, the message in this show is really meaningful ;) reminds me of jodi picoult's "change of heart" book. the quote from her book "how it feels like when the things you believe make you feel like you're on the outside looking in" kept popping in my head & i felt that it tied in nicely with this show(:
it's a must-watch! :D shan't reveal any spoilers ;)

{edit: i'm listening to 987fm now! and the female deejay says she's totally touched too HAH! and she kept crying too :o)

hoho, aftwards we went for dinner at cafe cartel(: we were totally full alrdy! but throughout, we had a veryvery good chat ;) and we were being attitude singaporeans by sitting down there veh long even after finishing our food hahah! but who cares, there weren't much business yesterday, surprisingly :o anyway it was kinda heartening that there's someone who agrees with how i feel^^ so at least i know i ain't crazy. so aww, pity we didn't go for ice cream at novena's. nxt time then^^

busybusy hols :o

buahhs,
whaipeng

when night falls,
and everything else falls -
apart/

***
what is it that you do to me, that keeps me coming back. every single damn time.

2009-03-11T06:50:00.000-07:00

YESH today is over(:
*bounces around*

anyway, i think this is shuper late, but thanks loads to cheryl + yanling + gerlynn for their pressies(:

and thanks awesome AARON for the dinner on monday =)
haha it was meant to be a surprise but jean ended up having to tell me cos i had a friendly match agnst rjc that day =/
but i was still very touched, nonetheless =)
we went to JP to randomly walk arnd & taking a totally long time to decide on what to eat^^
then finally, we settled on crystal jade! :D
haha! the dinner was really awesome & cos it was pretty nice just sitting down and chat, & i think aaron's feeling pretty broke now :D thanks hubby! :D you can look forward to yours, in like, 7 months?(:

so anywhoo, today was the bio presentation.
i think we screwed up big time x.x
okay, or maybe I did>< i'm not entirely sure, cos we ran outta time HEH! then the most important part of the ppt, which was jibee's part, wasn't touched on at all =(
heh okay, nvm, we will make it better for the game yup ;)

hols are coming!
and luckily the teachers are being slightly nicer, and extending our deadlines so that not all of my four outstanding projs are gna be due the same damn week! yay :D
hope i'd get to go out and have fun + mug this hols bah + climbing out of the shithole for physics with nelly! =(

haha i think i sound weird in this post :o
i don't know why though :o

tata,
leah ;)
{a lil joke btwn jibee & i :D so apt right!}

sometimes, goodbye is a second chance;

-------

i wonder what would you say though, if i told you everything i'm trying to hold back.

2009-03-08T05:01:00.000-07:00

hi world!

okay, just a short post bef i go back to the mountain of hwk + proj + tests to mug for :D
thanks everyone who has wished me happybirthday via sms/msn/fb/face-to-face/calls whatever(:

so anywhoo was supposed to go out w cleo on 7th t celeb our bday tgth, but she cldnt make it in the end, so my family brought me out for yummy seafood dinner!!! :D haha, it was really damn awesome(: heh. i guess this yr, my parents are pretty busy with the new hse and all, so they didnt hv much time getting cake/pressie/whatsoever, but i guess the pretty new hse made up for it^^ heh, truth be told, i was pretty upset ytd, but much thanks to GL & kevin who really tried all ways out =) reallyreallyreally appreciated it =)

then since i had the chance to celeb w my family ytd, my parents allowed me to go out w my friends tday(: though in the end, it turned out to be one friend haha! :D thanks loads chua for wanting to spend your sunday with me!<3 before meeting chua, i met gel & he was nice enough to gimme a prezz(: and we chatted for quite a bit since it was quite a while bef i had to meet chua. then aftwards, i walked arnd taka for awhile whilst waiting for chua! i went to forever21, and i thought the accessories there are pretty nice! and they were having some sorta sale as well^^

haha we went to far east to shop^^ i wanted to try some dresses since i figured i shld be a lil wild on my bday aye? ;) but i cldnt find one that caught my eye. okay luh, i thought that many of the strapless tube dresses were very pretty! but i totally didn't have the figure nor the assets (ahem) to support-.- haha! then chua & i bought matching bracelets! black & silver(or are they considered white oO) roses! pretty(: we wanted to get shoes too!!! ahh, but there weren't nice ones, cos the nice ones were for smaller sizes :(

afterwards, we walked to cineleisure! haha :D i still rmb the wordpress post of us taking the mrt from orchard to somerset^^ but luckily cos i did walk with my cousin a few days back, so i knew the way there yay! :D there weren't much at cine, so we left for heeren! :D

i bought some accessories at heeren! ahh there're so many pretty stuff D: i bought pastel-coloured pins :D vv pretty! and there's this furry-rose like ring that i wanted to get to! but it was pretty ex & totally not worth it bah =( and there was this biscuits like earrings i totally wanted to get! but i resisted the temptation heh =(

OHOHOH there was this really nice vintage-looking backpack!!! totally what i was looking for, but it was like 45$, and it didn't look too lasting, so i didn't get it in the end =( but now to think bout it, i kinda regret it leh. haiz. chua can testify how good it looks! :D and how long i stood there trying to decide whether i wanted to get it or not =/

booo. but on a brighter note, we went to basement of heeren for dessert! there's a huge difference btwn that of taiwan's dessert, but heyy, they didnt taste too bad, albeit a lil too sweet :D

heh, thanks chua once again for the awesome day((((: it was really great being able to catch up((: haha more during hols yup! :D

xoxo,
whaipeng

p.s. happybirthday to cleo too!!!^^

2009-03-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

i'm coming home, i'm coming home,
did you take off when i was gone?

heh ytd was pretty awesome^^
aaron & i ate sakae on an impule teehee :D
omg he's a really bad influence okay! we never meant to eat sakae cos all we wanted was perhaps, subway or pastamania at westmall.
but still, things weren't meant to be =p
so anywhoo, just like last yr, we sat down at the lib & mugged and did a bit of our work while waiting for 3pm to come! :D
heh, we ate till we were totally stuffed okay-.-
but one sad thing is that they didnt have peach or lychee mochi =( so we had to settle for sesame and yam ones =/ and the sesame was horrible =/
and of course, there were the classic STRAWBERRY SMILES!! :D
haha i totally dislike the sourness XD
heh, the meal was really enjoyable, cos i guess it's been like, since the start of the year since we had a proper lunch out tgth on a school day (unlike last yr when we could do it like, weekly) & without anyone disturbing us or bugging us or cutting into our convos (which happens really often these days, and i totally dislike it D:)

xoxo,
whaipeng

2009-02-28T03:08:00.000-08:00

okay, since it's the last day of feb, on a brighter note, cousin eugene & i went to catch slumdog millionaire! :D cousin eugene is my most awesome cousin, for the record! and the only cousin i actually bother and want to meet outside of the family gatherings we have =) haha, the show is really awesome!(: i think it's a very touching & at the same time, realistic show cos it paints a very real picture of mumbai that we might not be able to see all the time. gogo catch it!! :D i think the cinema was pretty crowded when we watched, cos everyone was like, waiting for the oscars to be over, before deciding if slumdog millionaire is worth watching, just like me at least^^

hahah, just slightly more than one more week & i wouldnt have to sneak into nc16 shows anymore ;)
whoopedo! i hope to make it a good one with cleo though(:

heh.
(:

2009-02-28T01:45:00.000-08:00

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okay

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to say
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late

Broken Strings by James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado(:
Sounds so bittersweet.

2009-02-28T01:31:00.000-08:00

Leah has strong convictions about lots of things, and while she strives to be truthful and direct, she can sometimes be less than 100% honest, and may tell someone a "little white lie" rather than risk hurting their feelings. Relationships are very important to Leah, and since she tends to take things personally, she can easily be disappointed by others.

A natural helper, Leah tends to worry about other people's problems that can make her feel sad. Although Leah can be competitive, she prefers to work cooperatively with people. She doesn't usually like to argue and is good at complimenting people when they do something she appreciates.

The personality test from the career counselling webbie.
Lol, I feel so 100% Leah-ish.

But the overall personality test wasn't too accurate =(

2009-02-27T06:15:00.000-08:00

Tgif.

Today, I learnt what it was like to have accidents cropping out unexpectedly,
Today, I learnt what it felt like to have much trust placed in you (& realizing how much I've missed it so),
Today, I learnt what it felt like to be all trembly & scared, but still having to stay strong,
Today, I learnt that it is possible to shed tears over someone you hardly know about,
Today, I have seen what is true bravery (& know that I had so much more to learn and catch up on from her),
Today, I learnt the wonders of a simple touch & words of comfort and of concern,
Today, I experienced once again how it feels like when there's so much you wanna say and pour out to, but there's no one there to listen.
Today, I realize the heart just ain't in it.

The above pretty much summed up today.
Which I thought was a really bad way to end the week, which could otherwise be pretty happy, since I didn't have to stay up much to complete hwk, cos this week is considered really very free compared to our hectic Week7. And however lousy it was previously, I still shaved off half a minute for 6 rounds today as compared to my timing for 5 rounds last week! And Jibee and I have been able to play more basketball this week (and I'm glad to say I've improved!)

But, thank God, that both of them are much better now. There's much to thank God about, especially since we were so near NUH today. Thank God he didn't panic and stayed clear & calm.
Thank God, thank God.

Disappointments aplenty. I know that I should just shrug them off & just move on as per norm, but it's precisely cos it's you , you and you that makes them all so hard to swallow.
I think I'm losing faith.
I wonder what happens if ever one day, I come to a realization that it just ain't worth the effort I put in.
I just hope that day never comes.
Cos I never thought that it would, at least not for y'all.

cos nobody's here when I call your name/

2009-02-23T17:19:00.000-08:00

I think I'm feeling lonesome.
Not lonely. Just lonesome.
Maybe, pray someday, that'll change.

2009-02-22T05:17:00.000-08:00

aaron & i just came to a harsh realization><
fingers crossed.

a whole new meaning to two lost birdies.
hah.

what's there left for us to do/
nothing, but to fight, -
and make things better than before

2009-02-22T03:19:00.000-08:00

hah! i don't know if i'm sloooow or what, but i finally changed my msn skin to tatty teddy skin! and it looks sho cute <3
hahah, especially when you do alt-tab when you're trying to change windows, there's this cute tatty teddy with a heart icon! :D (okay, my computing skills are a bit lacking, so i don't know how to express the icon properly! but i guess you'd get what i mean :D)

anywhoo, who's up for going shopping to get a new backpack with me! :D my shoulders are starting to ache from using only one side, for the past, like, 2 years? =(

leave the lights on, baby
cos i'll be coming home tonight.

2009-02-22T00:50:00.000-08:00

disappointed.

2009-02-14T23:09:00.000-08:00

we can fuss we can fight
long as everything's alright between us
before we go sleep,

no i don't wanna go to bed mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed mad at me

baby, can we make up now,
cos i can't sleep through the pain

never really listened to neyo's songs, but i thought this song is really catchy! haha.
i was up last night, & i recalled the last time i felt this way was when i was having a heated argument with someone, who for the record, wasn't my boyfriend whatsoever. but still, the feelings & sentiments from this song seemed pretty apt either way, cos i remembered crying & hoping that we'd resolve everything within that night. thankfully, we did.(:

2009-02-14T02:10:00.000-08:00

happy valentine's day to all out there!(:

thanks loads for jean's chocs, cleo's luscious lips & sweet note, timo's sweet note & rose, chua's choc pack (which was totally heavenly cos dark chocs are LOVELY<3), gel's pretty prezz & GELlybeans in the boxx (i was pleasantly surprised by the picture!!) ^^

for cca ytd, we had to go to bowen for a friendly match. on the bus, it somehow reminded me of yr one when i had to go to bowen & somehow, the loneliness just crept up on me & truth be told, i felt like shit, even though i cldn't figure why. after the friendly match yesterday, i went back to school & immediately rushed for a quick shower cos cleo & i wanted to go to prata house for dinner! hahah, we talk ALOT on the way there & whilst eating, which subsequently cheered me up loads! :D hahah, the lovely kaya prata is a must try!! :D

then cos by the time we walked back, our parents were not out yet, so we decided to take a night stroll around the track(: then after like, 4-5 rounds, suddenly a voice rang out "want to smoke?" it kinda scared us cos we thought we were alone!! and we talked pretty loud throughout lor, thank goodness it wasn't anyth too scandalous LOL. turned out to be jaryl, chongwei, stanley and some other random ppl which we couldn't make out in the dark! then they were made to do some random dares with us, like walking with their chests bare-.-

as for tday, i had a pretty enjoyable time! though i think i was really full after the Manhattan fish lunch!! D: haha! we wanted to catch "slumdog millionaire" cos we thought it'd be pretty cool to try out a bollywood-like film for once & the fact that it was nominated for many oscar awards & given a 4.5/5 rating made it pretty attractive! butbut decided it was too costly cos it's like, 10$ on a sat, when we could always catch it on a weekday =)

heh, then after that, we spontaneously decided to head to udders cos i had a craving for ice creamie suddenly! it's REALLY AWESOME!! i tried two flavours tday, & i'm so wanting to go back there SOONSOONSOON :D hahah, cleo was arnd the area that time, though i didnt get to meet her aww! so near yet so far =(

& now it's time for rushing out hwk + projects boo D:<

xoxo,
whaipeng

then again, maybe it's how the world works,
the people who care don't always matter
& the people who matter don't always care.
alas, alas.

2009-02-12T06:12:00.000-08:00

always close enough to touch,
but never quite close enough to hold,
& it's enough to break your heart

excerpt of a story frm my one of my all-time favourite authors, nicholas sparks! How very true, aye? Heh. It's a pity that his stories are always very tragic :(

Heh, had mentoring dinner ytd(: mr yang was cool enough to treat us to yummy italian dinner & I trudged home wet & pretty late Haha, but I guess it was pretty enjoyable, albeit there were a few sore points -coughs-

but you will never know how it feels like,

2009-02-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

it doesn't feel like what it's supposed to be,
maybe it's just not meant to be.

2009-02-07T07:25:00.000-08:00

macarons are yummy :D
tried them for the first time tday, cos my friend told me it was nice & since there's an offer for them (1$ per piece) in the mth of feb, i got them frm bakerzin!
i tried lemon & coffee, and the filling is totally rich :D the lemon one reminded me of the jam nigel, zikeng & i bought for aussie! which i alrdy finished cos it's really nice :D
everyone shld take advantage of the offer & buy more this month!!! :D any kind souls who go to vivo/JP must get some back for moi =p

whoo then by some coincidence, boonsiong was there at JP too! but pity, we didnt get to bump into him hahah! i guess it's cos JP is like frigging huge! :D i think the diy cake thingy is really a novel & interesting idea! we shld do it tgth someday^^

loves,
whaipeng

2009-02-07T02:59:00.000-08:00

counting towards & on, for more/

ever had a bad week, and you're so desperately looking forward to something that would turn everything that has been so lousy, into something good, even if it's just for a day?
yet when it was supposed to happen, it didn't turn out to be as great as you thought it would be.

yeah, face it baby, that always happens.

well honestly, i thought it would be the case in the early afternoon of the day... >:(
but i guess it wasn't the case for tday!
cos i definitely enjoyed myself loads today(:
heh, next week's gna be a long lousy week again, i foresee, but well, at least there's something to look forward to(:

was it something that i did,
was it something that i said,
or was it the combination of both that did me wrong;

2009-02-05T04:48:00.000-08:00

jibee taught me how to play minesweeper!(:
honestly, before her, i've nvr known how to play the game-.- tbh, i always thought that the aim of the game was to make it explode! LOL. though i've always wondered at the sad face when they happened-.-"

anyway weekends are finally coming(: thankfully! this week's been a crazy one. (though i think the worst has yet to come! D:)

piggies! what's the plans for this sat manzx!! hahah. if not, i'm so gna go out & enjoy myself either ways, if time permits after maths proj(:

stargazing this night away.
wishing i could find the answers i seek, up in the sky.

2009-02-03T05:55:00.000-08:00

tday was pretty awesome B-)
after a really short day of lessons, i went to see mr ku for consultation since my maths is really shitty D:

then after that, GL & i spontaneously agreed to go down to queensway since i had to get my boots & he was nice and awesome (and of course patient) enough to accompany me :D

like a girl i am, i took awesomely long to choose the best deal for my boots, shinguard & socks :D in the end, i decided to start low and use cheaper stuff first since i'm nowhere near pro :D got everyth for just over 50$(: got black&silver shoes, with black shiguards & black umbro socks :D omg, so black themed haha. i rather neon yellow or something bright actually, but not enough $$$ :D and shldn't be too prominent, later very malu since i suck bigtime HAHA! :D

then after that we went to subway for tea & catch up with each other(: since we hv not met up, since forever?

whee cityvibe (the name of the new clementi mall) has subway! :D and aaron pointed out that there's sakae too :D awesome, loads of that during our hostel year :]

oh and yeah, for the record, i just joined gal's soccer :] and yeah i know, it's totally unexpected hahah, even pan chuen was like, you joined soccer!? haha, but i think it's gonna turn out pretty good :] the people there are really nice & outgoing! :] guess i've loads to learn frm them :]

BUT FOR NOW, back to awful masteringphysucks! =(

xoxo,
whaipeng

was i way too honest?

2009-02-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

I found this song pretty meaningful(:
Gotta be Somebody by Nickelback(:

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just arent enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, its just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You cant give up (when you're looking for)
A diamond in the rough (Because you never know)
When it shows up (make sure you're holding on)
Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Nobody wants to be the last one there (what your looking for)
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares (you never know)
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere (start holding on)
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

2009-01-31T23:02:00.000-08:00

hooboy, one month of 2009 just zoomed right past!
ohmygosh!

hahah, the jc ppl are starting their orientation tmr, hope y'all have great fun!!
am totally looking forward to the aussie piggies gathering this sat && of course, valentine's day the following saturday! (goodluck gl for ur upcoming race!) though i'm totally NOT looking forward to maths test on 16th! i think they are utterly cruel to make it the monday right after the valentine's day weekend! >:(

anyhow, i'm just updating cos ben is bugging me to :D we're currently both lamenting bout the hwk we've to do :( which is starting to accumulate, since i had a celebration ytd.

on a sidenote, i think the song "You Found Me" by The Fray is really awesome! haha :D the song i'm currently obsessed with(:

xoxo,
whaipeng

is it 8 or ∞? i guess i would know in awhile. and it's from there, i will see where this goes.

2009-01-25T06:53:00.000-08:00

saw this from www.interiordesignroom.blogspot.com!

uber sweet(: simple and the message is clear! haha :D but well, i'm sure every gal would want a diamond ring still^^

and this is really funneh :D

oh man, i wish i had this!! :D awesome beds! there are some that really looks very classy though :D

and gosh this is sho awesomezx! i always wished i had a nice band to wear!

omg i'd grab wallets like this if i saw them^^ shuper funky!

hah! i'm sure my friend woulda bought this for me if he has seen this since he's always so horrified by my knowledge (or lack thereof) of geog! it'd be a cool gift for ccyy though :D

GEE SHEESH-.-

aww, i'm totally attracted to nice sweet necklaces<33 pity it's hard to find them here in singapore!

PRETTAYEE! <3
totally needs a new ipod now cos the batt is a lil faulty for my old one =(

HAHA there's so much more to see^^ really awesome webbie to check out :D

xoxo.

p.s GEL, have an awesome trip to taiwan! omg i totally envy you! :D stay safe yup!(: bring loads of souvies back too^^

awesome! <3

2009-01-23T20:46:00.000-08:00

jelloh people(:

hooboy, yesterday was such an AWESOME day!((:<33

i went to school earlier even though we could report at like, 8.45, cos aaron said to go earlier so we could judo. but he turned out to be late!!! :@ hmphh :D so in the end, i went down to the canteen with cleo to the canteen cos she had to do the student lounge discussion. kinda reminds me of last year^^ but whee, aaron came down after awhile with funan & kevin so we judoed quite a bit :D though i think i was a bit blur lor, like too long didn't play bridge le.__. also, kevin loaned us his psp2 to play some drum games (though i can't rmb the name) & i'm so lousy at it!! cos i can't coordinate well =( but aaron wasn't that bad kekeke :D though kevin was teh ultimate prozx.

then after that, we went up to the hall, before going up to the audi for the performance! poor year 1&2s didn't get a chance to watch it, aww. and yay we'd be hving potluck next wed(:
the performance was pretty good luh! haha :D and thanks to the mariel & timo who called me at the same time, jibee and i gotta sit tgth with them! and haha in the end, i got the best of both worlds since aaron & yongqin moved over :D i laughed a lot at the crosstalk!!

so after the performance, cleo & i went down to the canteen cos we wanted to go off for early lunch at prata house! then when we got down, aaron was like, "hello" at us, like in a half dazed tone. turns out that he was calling me before that, and he thought that he was still talking on the phone-.- omg sho lame!! :D

so anywhoo, since he had time to spare bef going back to his pri sch, a few of us (aaron, cleo, funan, ccyy, kevin, yuhan & i) went to prata house for lunch!!! :D:D hahah whilst ordering, yuhan was like timing himself with his cube, and the man who took our orders were very amused i think-.- like nus high sch is so geek! =( but luckily, the other awesome bunch of us cancelled the geekiness out =p cleo influenced me to order the kaya prata! omg, it's uber awesome!! then after eating and chatting, kevin let us play with his psp2 again, and he put it to a random stage, so cleo & i took turns trying, w/o knowing what stage we were doing, cos we figured if we didn't know, maybe we could trick ourselves into thinking that we could do it^^ hahah, we got owned(: then aaron started whining after he finished his prata, so he took turns with us also, and his fingers really like flew around lor. i don't understand how you coordinate!! like, the little eggs just fly down at a lightning speed!!

hehe then after that we went our own ways, and cleo & i hopped on to the train to bugis! whoo! when we were there, we wanted to see if there was a show we could watch, but somehow the cinema at bugis is like really pathetic-.- so we decided to go shopping instead^^ we first went to fox & topshop, but they were too costly, albeit very pretty, cos the sale was for credit card holders only, arghh :( i saw a nice pretty clutch-like pouch for 63$ at topshop omg i want :(
so we crossed the road to bugis street! a haven for teenagers who are not very rich, cough cough :D wahh, i was really picky lor, cos i wanted to make sure the blouse is long, the sleeves are what i like, the colour is nice, the material is nice, what we are paying is worth it, etc etc

then after walking arnd a lot, a nice cheap 10$ blouse caught our eyes! haha! in the end, cleo got the black-inside-white-outside, while i got the white-inside-black-outside! wowow, like yin-yang! LOL :D then i got my jacket finally!! like after 2183739472349372 yrs! :D it's a nice shade of yellow, which doesnt look too sallow cos it's supposed to look cheerful! haha, it's cute! hopefully it'd last me for some time^^ bef i've a jacket craze again(:

then we were feeling tired, so we rested at the hong kong cafe and got a desert! we got scammed lor, it's like frigging expensive! but it was really refreshing^^ we sat down there & eat & chatted like non stop! hahah :D till we decided to move on to look for more clothes for me :D i got one more printed shirt before heading back to bugis!! haha, the woman who sold it to me was so grumpy! but maybe that's cos i accidentally knocked off one of her shirt, hehe. i think the material is nice lor! and for once, i got a brighter shade cos i figured i shld hv more reddish-pinkish clothes since it's cny! i wanted to get the bronze colour de, cos it was more unique, but nvm, another time then!! :D

ohoh then since it was early, we went to the arcade!! LOL, we had a lot of fun playing many different games hoho! (and blowing our cash away sadly =/ but we did it in moderation!) the gayest was bishi bashi! haha, omg, my hands have bruises le lor =/ and i can't believe it, I ACTUALLY LOST MY VOICE WHILE LAUGHING AND SHOUTING WHEN WE WERE PLAYING!! haha, i sounded like a horse with my horse voice XD

then afterwards, we rushed to pastamania for dinner cos there's this student promo bef 5pm :D we got the apple crumble set as well &&& gosh it's really nice and worth it! :D haha we sat down & talked like no tmr :D which was totally <33!
then we had some time to spare, and went around bugis looking at cute random stuff. we also went to samuel & kevin, where cleo made me try a sleeveless blouse! she said it looked nice though personally i thought i looked like a drug addict =/ then she persuaded me to buy it! and i almost did, though last minute i chickened out cos i was afraid i wldnt wear it :D i still remember in the last 205 chalet, we played the "i have never..." game and i said i've never worn sleeveless blouses outta hse! hahah! :D

kay cleo, nxt time when we go shopping again, we get smth new & exotic yarr!! =p

oh and my snr wanted to meet me since he was around the area as well, but too bad i was hving dinner then and cldn't coordinate a time bef he had dinner with his family. hahah, he's like outta army for the first time in two weeks! and i wanted to see how he looks like with his botak head =D

okay, i shld stop blogging, i think this is the longest blog post in awhile^^

tata pips!
have a great lunar new year(:
(though honestly, given the hwk load, it wldnt be very enjoyable-.-)

xoxo.

p.s. words of wisdom for the day!

gambling is always a gamble!

kekeke thought of this whilst talking to aaron bout gambling on msn._. my family doesnt gamble sadly! D:

sometimes you have to stand alone--
just to make sure you still can.

true, but still, i thank God for all of you in my life, the ones who matter(:

2009-01-21T02:32:00.000-08:00

tell me, how am i to trust you, when you're bent on hurting me every single time. using the same single damn way.

it's not as if you don't know how i feel about it. i try to be objective, cos if you didn't know better, i wouldn't care less. but you know, and truth be told, you know me more than the others would ever know. am i supposed to pretend that i don't feel affected by what you do?

tell me, just how am i supposed to.

2009-01-20T20:57:00.000-08:00

you broke the cardinal rule. so just screw off.

2009-01-17T00:39:00.000-08:00

Note to self:
Remember what's important this year, & don't lose sight of my path.
Most of all, don't stray.

Today, I had a taste of what it feels like to have someone caring & looking out for me. (Okay this sounds pretty mean & wrong cos I don't mean that I don't feel the care of others around me as well =/ but it's just that this was kinda unexpected)

And honestly, I feel so touched, I don't really know how to express it, nor do I know how to express my thanks.
Except to show it to him that his trust and belief in me will not go to naught.

2009-01-16T21:35:00.000-08:00

damnit.
why am i feeling this way?

just how long can i keep up with this.

2009-01-14T01:13:00.000-08:00

heard this on the radio!

there's easier things in life than finding a good man
...
..
.
like nailing jelly to the wall, for instance

for the only person who would know what I mean, we really shld do this more often :D

2009-01-11T00:10:00.000-08:00

alas, the mind races faster than the eyes can close

been thinking a bit, if it's meant to be so right, then why do i feel this way?
it's not fair to you1, you2, you3 and you4.
but either way, from what i see, if things go wrong, i'm gonna lose every single one of you who matters.
and maybe along with myself too.

cos when a heart breaks, it don't break even.
a pretty meaningful song(:

2009-01-10T06:32:00.000-08:00

On a brighter note, I went to Science Centre tday to support our schoolmates! Just wanna spread the msg to take a look at this webbie & vote to show your support!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_njx6bDDWug&feature=related

Cheers!

xoxo. I'm so proud of you :D

2009-01-10T06:04:00.000-08:00

http://theonlinecitizen.com/2009/01/sent-home-with-s600/

A dear friend of mine showed this to me. He is part of this project, and he had hoped that more people would understand the atrocities of situations we mightn't know, just cos we ain't exposed to it in our daily lives. Hope all of you could take the effort to take a read at it =)

Thanks loads!

2009-01-02T22:06:00.000-08:00

Heh, hvnt gotten a chance t sit down & post proper bout the past yr, but then agn, I figured I'm feeling this way cos it doesn't seem like it's the new year? Maybe it needs some time getting used t it.. I've got loads t say tho, just not too sure if it's appropriate for them t be out here. till then(:

For now, I just wna say thankyou t the ones that matter, especially you(:

your love, my beacon

2008-12-31T02:17:00.000-08:00

I still feel a pang. Wish it is, what it could have been.

2008-12-30T23:33:00.000-08:00

Oh no, timetable's out D:
Gee.
Now now, lemme prep my timetable bef posting my extremely long post which I still hvnt decided if I shld this yr^^

*fingers crossed that i wld hv same free periods*

2008-12-30T22:13:00.000-08:00

Cos we were dead, if they knew;

Just a short post since "my manly man" asked for it^^
Thanks for the awesome time yesterday! For accompanying me to the dreadful dentist which I had no choice but to go even though I had some family chalet stuff going on zzz-.-, for bringing me to hang around with the small, cute guys, even though I was pretty nervous at first (but I pretty much was able to warm up to them afterwards whoo!!), & for bringing me arnd your area of sorts.

Cheers((:

2008-12-29T19:22:00.000-08:00

heh, waiting on e dental chair for my dentist t attend t me.. & using wifi on my awesome phone of course(: my friend's outside waiting for me Haha._. He invited on board his boat last night at one of e docks near sembawang, but duh, obviously I cldnt go, since it might seem pretty scandalous & that, I've other family stuff on for the nxt few days.

The year is coming t an end, tho it sure doesn't feel that way. . Heh, post ltr, dentist is here alrdy!

2008-12-27T01:17:00.000-08:00

Awesome, I hafta do a quiz by order of somebody (bleh), so naturally I chose the easiest & harmless looking quiz, and I found it on Chua's blog,sooo.. thanks!

1)How many texts are in your inbox?
Uh, the last time I checked, it's like, 523 msgs, pretty impressive considering my phone is pretty young^^ unlimited smses ftw :D

2)When did your last hug take place?
Hehe, yesterday? :D

3)Are you a jealous person?
Extremely jealous person^^ But then again, it takes somebody close to feel/sense it :D

4)Are you tired right now?
Tired of..? Physically tired, nope not yet. Mentally? Kind of.

5)Do you chew on your straws?
Uh, I used to.. But I stopped doing that :D

6)Have you ever been called a tease?
Nope :D

7)Do you like to cuddle?
Yesh of course(:

8)Do you cry easily?
Hmm, I tear easily. But cry, hmm, it takes something sad to make me cry, like cry openly :O

9)Are you a heavy sleeper?
Nope, light sleeper(: I always convince myself by saying that if ever there's a fire, I would be the one who screams "Fire, fire!!"

10)Where is your cellphone?
Beside moi :D

11)Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
Hahah yeah why not? :D 6 years is long for now, but I'm sure 6 months can do^^

12)Are you mad at someone right now?
Hahah, maybe?

13)Do you believe in love at first sight?
I believe, but it hasn't happened to me so far!

14)What makes you laugh out loud?
Uh, stuff that's hilarious? I'm a laugh-out-loud kind of person :D

15)Who was the last person you talked to?
On the phone, it's like Damien? If not, uh, my sis who's beside me?

16)Name one person on your friends who is most like you.
(I omitted the word "top" before friends; it sounds wrong anyways muahaha) And uh, hmm, I would think Nigel? I don't know, I feel that we think pretty similar most of the time, which is kinda hard to find since my closest friend, Aaron, is pretty different from me? Hahah!

17)Do you get butterflies when around the person you like?
-.-" No! I mean, if you like that person, you'd have to feel comfortable with him, at the very least riiiight? Maybe your heart would skip a beat or something, but butterflies are purely meant for presentations or something._.

18)Will you get married?
Yup of course :D

19)When was the last time you smiled?
Uh, weird question.

20)Does anyone like you?
Yup((: It would be pretty sad if no one likes you right._.

21)Do you secretly like someone?
Why do you have to secretly like someone! If you like somebody, show the looove(:

22)Who was the first person you talked to today?
Uh, my sister? We share the same room(:

23)Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Hmm, I don't know? There are some stuff I don't share with Person A, but I'd share with Person B o.o But I guess the most comfortable would be Aaron for now :D

24)What are you NOT looking forward to?
Hafta agree with Chua, school reopening. And the fact that holidays is coming to an end means that no more relaxing, no more slacking, no more going out :O

25)Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
Yesh(: I guess they do mean it.

26)Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
I haven't had the honour of seeing that for the record, but well, I wouldn't do anything? :O

27)Are you a forgiving person?
Neh. Not really. Okay, maybe I forgive, but I definitely don't forget. So it kinda makes no difference anyways.

28)What’s something you really want right now?
Hmmm.

29)Do you fall for people easily?
Nope.

30)Have you ever fallen for your best friend ex’s ?
Nope. I don't think my best friend has an ex to begin with, & I wouldn't fall in love with a girl ;)

31)What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
The cake we baked yesterday!((:

32)Have you ever kissed anyone named Michelle?
Nope-.-

33)Who was the last person you drove with?
If it's based on how Chua interpreted the question, uh, I guess it would be GL, which means that it has been a long time since I went to the arcade D:

34)How late did you stay up last night and why?
Hmm, 2am? Read my book & thinking about stuff(:

35)If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Muahaha, well, I'm moving anyways(:

36)Do you prefer to call or text?
It depends on who is the other party! If it's someone close to me, I'd rather call cos I find it a bother to sms since there would be sho much to talk about! (Which explains why my call counters are always high, teehee) But texting is good for people you don't really know what to talk to, or when you wanna talk to somebody bad when you're in class or something :D

37)When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Hmm, it's on the 19th October, that was really really hard. Otherwise, from then on, in november & dec through this holiday, neh, I've been feeling damn happy(((:

38)Who took your profile picture?
Profile picture? Uh, if it's the facebook one, it is my sis.

39)Who was the last person you took a picture of?
My sister?

40)Can you live a day without TV?
Hahah, I've lived a semester without tv, but heh, after this holiday of watching tv & slacking, I don't really know if I wanna live a day without TV D:

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Interesting quiz! Pretty simple & nice to do too(:

xoxo,
whaipeng

I should know that you're not gonna change,
Cos you're hot then you're cold;
You're in then you're out;

Confused.
Am I just torturing myself.

2008-12-26T20:39:00.001-08:00

hooboy, using my phone t post! So pardon me if the formatting sucks & all, cos i think it's like cool t make use of my wifi at least once during the hols._. msn mobile is like hard t use, cos my phone ain't touch screen, so vv hard t navigate.

this xmas seems pretty bleh, honestly. Grandma got warded into hospital :( then I heard one of our senior is in e hospital too.. =( God bless them, and hope everyth wld go smoothly for them.. =/

2008-12-24T02:50:00.000-08:00

i had like, one of the sweetest & nicest surprise yesterday(:
i met my boss/friend at vivo in the morning to go to Giant before heading for work, & he was slightly late, so i waited...then when he came, he gave me a BreadTalk plastic bag and said that the two pieces of bread inside was my breakfast. i was like, o.o cos i already had breakfast & i wasn't very hungry either. so i kept trying to push the bread back to him... but he kept insisting, saying "i don't wanna eat that, and you better not throw them away!"
so this conversation kept repeating, with me trying to push the bread back to him... and finally after shopping for groceries, i gave up & reached into the plastic bag for the bread (cos honestly, i was kinda hungry luh :D)
AND I FOUND OUT IT WAS ACTUALLY BREADOU!!
omg, if not for taking out the piece that had the smiley face, i swear i woulda sink my teeth into the other plain piece cos it looked sho real!!! and he purposely took the trouble (and pleasure of course, i suspect-.-) to put it in breadtalk plastic bag, and those breadtalk transparent small bags and packed those in!!
AHHH :D i can't believe i actually got tricked =/
but still, it was one of the greatest & sweetest surprise i ever had :D especially considering the fact that i've been gushing over breadou for a long time & he only knew bout that, like the day bef?

loves,
whaipeng

p.s. sorry for the lack of update on my blog.. hahah i think many extremely eventful stuff have happened, but hehe, as usual, i'm kinda lazy to update, and more often than not, i'd rather share the joy with the ones i love, rather than sharing with them on my blog with the whole world to see(: as you can see, i'd rather stay low profile & keep things nice and mysterious kekeke :B

p.p.s. sorry for not being able to make it yesterday cos smth urgent cropped up.. and sorry to trouble you to come all the way for nothing>< seeya soon though!(: i can't wait! ^^v teehee :D

xoxo

2008-12-24T02:49:00.000-08:00

i was afraid and wary when i first knew for sure, even though i saw this coming for some time.
i didn't know what to expect, though, and even more so, i didn't know what to do. i wanted to back off, wanted to think it wasn't a good idea, wanted to think that i wasn't good enough since it has eluded me for too long, but i couldn't.
so i just wanted to say, since we're going into this with our eyes open, let's make this worth the fight(:

2008-12-13T07:22:00.000-08:00

I feel like shit.
Something tells me it's gonna be a long long night.
And honestly, I'm sick of feeling this way.

But thanks a million to Jean for listening to me & talking to me(:

2008-12-12T22:35:00.000-08:00

This is a really awesome video Boon Siong showed me :D

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=YXM3wrIhcwY

Okay, back to my essay writing D: Jiayous self & the rest of the people suffering out there! ^^v

trust & faith

2008-12-12T07:36:00.000-08:00

is trust meant to be earned?
or is a matter of faith?

2008-12-12T04:28:00.000-08:00

a burnt child dreads fire, but not me.
it's like i just can't stay away from getting burnt, every single damn time.

i met up with nigel tday for some advice & help for my essays which are due in, like, 3 days? hahah, the essays are the price that all those people who went for the aussie trip had to pay, in a way =( but i guess it's kinda good to use my brain once in awhile, since it's like the first time this holiday that i've been writing/working on something. which reminds me not to slack anymore since the hols are ending D:

so anywhoo, nigel was nice enough to go to sun plaza to meet me! hahah, the awesome thing was that he lives in yishun, so that's pretty close hehe(: we went to mos burger and got a couple of stuff while we sat there. mos burger is one of the most ulu places in sun plaza cos there's no way you could get into mos burger w/o getting out of the building. it was really hot at first, cos i think they forgot to on the air conditioner-.- but it cooled down after awhile(: hahah, phewww. so anyway, he went through my extremely cheesy ENGLISH written essay, and gave me some tips & help and all before we decided to subconsciously chuck away all our work & started chatting!((: which was really enjoyable since both of us think pretty alike! =)

yay can't wait for the jan 1st gathering where i can see everyone again(: so far, i've only met up with lewis, zikeng & nigel... and of course, needless to say, jibee!

love,
whaipeng

p.s. sorry this post ended pretty abruptly ;DD

2008-12-12T03:40:00.000-08:00

whee, 305 had a class meal (supposedly) with Mr LCS yesterday, but it turned out that only 3 of us could go--seoyoun, jibee & i. actually ben was supposed to go as well, but he chickened out in the end :(
we were there at bugis slightly earlier (though i was kinda later than them as usual><), so we headed to the arcade & had some fun there(: i think bishi bashi (sp?) is a really fun game! and it is not as brainless as most arcade games cos you really have to be pretty good with hand-eye coordination, which apparently i'm not, cos i suck at this game :(

so anyways, we went to seoul garden for lunch(: Mr LCS was really nice to give us a treat & i guess at first it was a lil weird, but we soon warmed up afterwards! hahah it was pretty fun cooking! since it's the first time ever i've been to seoul garden so i was a lil slow at times haha! we ate & chatted till arnd 2.45pm before we rushed down to get tickets to "The Day the Earth Stood Still"!!

okay, i don't know why nowadays cinemas don't play as many commercials as before, maybe it's to cut costs by saving on electricity? whatever the reason, it truly explains why aaron & i have always been missing like, 5 minutes of the movies i've watched lately =/

so welllll, i'm so embarrassed to say this butbut the four of us smelt totally awful!! cos of all the smoke while cooking, and the fact that jibee & i were wearing long-sleeve, so i guess it kinda "traps" more of the smell._. either way, throughout the whole show, we could "smell the seoul garden" in us. it's a miracle that no one fainted in the cinema, cos i, for one, felt really bad! well, the show was pretty okayish, just a lil sad that it had not much of a climax & it's pretty predictable. like i told nigel, i woulda preferred "The Day After Tomorrow" for the similar kind of show & meaning behind hahah. still, the gayest part of the show is when keanu reeves spoke chinese in that atrocious accent!!! Mr Lim, who was sitting beside me, laughed damn loudly! :D while i was laughing somewhat gleefully cos his chinese sounds worse than mine(: which doesn't really count since he's an ang moh, but whatever XD oh another funny part was when the camera zoomed out, only to show us the Sydney Harbour Bridge, where jibee & i burst into laughter cos during the aussie trip, we had taken so many pictures of it + Sydney Opera House that we were kinda tired of it!!

afterwards, we stopped by Gramophone, where Mr Lim bought manymanymany dvds hahah. i guess it was kinda a pity that we had to leave pretty early just as we've gotten pretty comfortable with one another, but i guess there's always a next time like what Mr Lim told me afterwards, and ahem, the turnout must be better the next time! :D

2008-12-08T02:51:00.000-08:00

there are so many things i wanna tell you,
yet i'm too wary, or maybe i'm just too scared.
so here i am, back to square one,
when all i want, all i yearn for, is to be in your arms
as you chase away the demons that have been killing me, for far too long.

Just washed my awesomely dirty muddy shoes which got soiled during the chunk fest :(

Butbut, I guess it was worth it! Chunk Fest was the <3!

Shall upload some pictures which we took while we camwhored with the random signs & stuff the nxt time(:

Tatas!

2008-12-02T19:25:00.000-08:00

hello stranger,

where have you been all these while?
have i even found you? i don't even know who you are. i just need you. so bad.
love,
whaipeng

2008-12-02T03:29:00.000-08:00

Whoo hiya pips(:

I think my blog traffic has indeed increased ever since Chua helped to advertise on her own blog, sooo.. thanks a million Chua! :D

Anyways, convocation yesterday went pretty smoothly I guess! Hahah, though I wouldn't have much to comment on since it ain't our year to graduate yet! Had brunch at Prata House with Chua before heading to school, and it's been quite a while since we sat down and talked, so I felt pretty good the whole day since we had loads of time to chat & catch up on our lives =)

Oh, and to set the record, Chua didn't roflmao! INSTEAD, she literally went rofl ._. Somehow I have this feeling that she is laughing inside, boohoo D: But I shan't say why(:

Anyways, while we were practically starving in the theatrette waiting for the girls to clear their bags & belongings, the guys, namely Ivan & Zikai, were sho nice to bring us FOODFOODFOOD from the buffet spread, before both of us turned into skeletons(: needless to say, we had like, three helpings each :D

Oh, and Jean was awesome enough to wait for me after her duty to go home together cos I was smsing her during the ceremony that I was emo in the afternoon (which I was, for pretty much of the afternoon cos of some events that happened the night before, which I shan't say, except that I think it's okay now..) & so we had a pretty great chat on the way home! Hahah, it's been a pretty damn long time since we've talked like this & the feeling yesterday was just great(: Although sorry if I was a lil too whiny :$

Anywhoo, today Aaron & I went to OCC :D I wasn't late for once!! Omg, that's like the first time ever that Aaron didn't have to wait for me :D Heh, there was an Aussie people gathering but I didn't go in the end cos I don't think I was cut out for kboxing :( Perhaps the next time! Hope it went awesome :D Then we played table tennis & we wanted to bowl at first, but decided against it cos we wanted to have a proper lunch before going to the cinemas.

Ohohohoh, Aaron treated moi to Pasta Mania, which just opened like 2 days ago in Sun Plaza. Thanks ron(: but the lunch was pretty nerve-wrecking cos I was kinda afraid that my mum would walk by seeing the both of us XD But thankfully she didn't(:

We went to watch Quarantine!! So I went up to get tickets, and omg, I was like, trembly when I was getting them cos it's the first time whereby I'm actually getting the tickets myself cos normally my companion would be the one getting it O: but obviously Aaron couldn't, cos he looks younger than me._.So I pretended that I didn't have my ezlink card with me, and all I had was my school card. The woman at the counter was like, "Gimme your i/c number" and thankfully, I was sane enough to say "S920****J" instead of "S930****J"SO WHOOPEE WE GOT IN!!! =)

Grats to Aaron for no longer being a NC16-virgin =) WHOO!!

Hahah, the show was pretty awesome! And it's more realistic than most of the similar kind of show that I've watched before :D Butbutbut, the ending kinda sucks luh, as expected. The show was pretty gory, and half the time, both of us were covering & jumping up from our seats._. but hey! The thrill one gets is, in short, awesome :D

Oh, then we went to the Sun Plaza arcade, which I shall admit that, for the past 10 years of leaving in Sembawang estate, I've never ever stepped into it before._. Kekeke, we had a helluva time there(:

Lalala, anyways, gee, it's december already and I realize that I've been slacking during the whole of November :( And there's still so much things to do, so many places to go, so many people to go out with! =)But WHEE, X'mas is coming!(: I want prezzzzz<3!

W love,

Whaipeng!

Now baby, let's make this worth the fight;

the tears i cried for you.

2008-12-02T03:28:00.000-08:00

I cried myself to sleep that night,
Wondering if I had done it wrong all along.
How could something which seemed so right be so wrong.
Then I woke up next morning with hardened resolve,
I was going to put it all behind,
But there isn't a chance in hell that I would ever forget.

2008-11-29T02:24:00.000-08:00

Instead, here we are
So, slow down baby, just slow down;

Just took a trip down memory lane reading my old posts from my previous blog which is incidentally locked up cos I wldn't want anyone else to see how childish/dumb/lovesick/emo/vulgar/unsensible I was in the past :D Though I was nice enough to invite Lewis to read it cos I figured there was no harm in doing that since he isn't in the same class/school as me to begin with(:

For some reasons which I don't know why myself, I am feeling a lil down. Maybe it's the thought bout both of you which upsets me. Or maybe it was from the email I opened this morning, knowing that I can't set my heart into doing something I should. I don't know what's stopping me, is it the fact that I'm always apprehensive when it comes to committing my entire heart and soul into doing something. I know I can do it, yet at the same time, it takes a lot of effort, a lot of assurance to make me wanna stay on cos I hate feeling unappreciated. Or maybe it's the realization that I don't really know who to go to. Or maybe the fact that the care I shower on you goes unappreciated sometimes. Or maybe it's how vulnerable you make me feel. Or maybe how I don't wanna fail no more. Or maybe how fucking useless I am when it comes to this. Or maybe, it's just the combination of all of them.

Quiz II :D

2008-11-28T23:01:00.000-08:00

Rules and Regulation!

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 wierd things/ habits/little known facts about yourself

2) People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own, 10 wierd things/habit/ little known facts as well as state this rule clearly

3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged, and list their names.

4) No tag back

Facts about me(:

1) I don't like warm lettuce found in burgers of Mos Burgers. But I don't mind those that are cold and nice in salads :D

2) I actually used to listen to chinese songs. And actually I used to love chinese, and I used to speak chinese ALOT to my friends, *GASPS* isn't that kinda hard to swallow? But of course something that happened changed that.

3) I'm a sentimental person that I keep letters, small notes, nice & sweet smses, my old journals, etc etc. & I can spend hours reading them and reminiscing bout the good old times.

4) (I'm inspired by Chua's 10 facts bout herself that I just gotta say...) I've never watched a sunrise neither. And I got so close to be able to see that in Aussie!!! Ahhh. (On a sidenote, I think it would be really romantic to watch the sunrise & sunset together with someone you love, especially maybe after a picnic by the beach before you catch the sunset!! :D)

5) Bubble teas can actually make me go high. That's why I always have the urge to drink them when I'm down. But of course I still drink them when I'm high :D

6) I actually think that for me, smsing takes a lot of effort, surprise surprise & it's pretty hard to gauge the feelings involved. (But I doubt anyone would believe me with the rate I sms. But still, I would still prefer talking to the person face-to-face or chatting on the phone :D :D cos nothing beats that! That's why I prefer chatting on the phone to Aaron if there's a lot to be said & share instead of smsing cos I'm always too lazy to do so :D)

7) I dislike it when people expect me to speak really well just cos I'm in gavel club, cos the fact is, I suck at public speaking, impromptu-ing, whatever._. Anyone who is in gavel club can attest to that.

8) I'm not good with a big group of people. I'll be either really shy & not talk much cos I feel left out or on the other extreme, I will be super high & talk a lot. Still, a small number of people work best for me, like, 2 person outing or 3 person outing. But most people prefer a large number of people so the outing would be more lively, shrugs.

9) I seldom watch animated shows on cinemas. Unless it's during a class outing :D Dunno why, but I always figured that I only like certain kind of shows on cinemas. Hahah recently, I've been watching more horror shows with Aaron since we like to just scream & seriously, we are the only people in the whole cinema who scream lor =/ (which is pretty bad :D)

10) Uh, last one... I cry easily, like when I watch certain movies or even when reading books :D But it's a pretty good gauge on how good the book/movie is I suppose! :D But then again, most people can't tell when I'm crying. Hahah, not even the ones closest to me.

ohohoh, and since I've some inspiration now... let's throw in one more!

11) I think lefties are cool :D Especially since I'm one. And if I'm given a choice to choose from left or right, I will ALWAYS ALWAYS choose the left, no matter what :D same goes for my lucky number, 7!

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There you go! I hope that's random enough :D

People to be tagged:

1) Thengy
2) Jean
3) GL
4) Aaron
5) Zikeng
6) Ash
7) Lewis (on your non-existant blog which you should set up immediately to thank me for unlocking my old blog to you!! EDIT: awesome, you told me your blog url le(: whoo :D)
8) Nic Yeo
9) JL?
10) (EDIT) NIGEL!! (sho sorry i forgot bout your blog x.x till Lewis mentioned you :D)

2008-11-28T06:18:00.000-08:00

just back from obs!
omg i'm too tired (mentally & physically) to do up a decent post so that will be next time(:
i can't wait to sink into my awesome, soft, comfy, clean, nice smelling, soft-toys-aplenty-with-pillow-and-bolster BED!!
tata~!

baby, where does this path lead to?

2008-11-23T01:56:00.000-08:00

1) CHUA

2) Your relationship with him/her is: Ex fellow 205ver & close friends(:

3) Your impressions on (*of)him/her is: A very driven person & a really awesome friend :D

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: Being there for me in Year Two, when there weren't anybody else & for advising me on some matters of the heart ;)

5) The most memorable thing he/she said to you: Telling me in a really sweet & heartening sms that she will be there for me(:

6) If he/she becomes your lover you will: Uh, I will probably laugh till I die? Cos the last time I checked, we are both, thankfully, straight :D

7) If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: Nothing, cos I would have been dead by then :D

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Misunderstandings or backstabbing. Somehow the word enemy sounds harsh, lol.

9) The most desired thing you wanna do for him/her now is: Hang out one full day with her!!!!

10) Your overall impression on him/her is: Mysterious?

Continued!
11) How you think people around you feel about you:
Honestly, I don't know & I don't really care bout how people who are unclose to me feel about me. Since most of those people only know very limited stuff bout me or rather what they know is pass around by people who gossip, so I guess most people would think that either I'm a bitch or I am some sort of shy loner since they don't exactly understand the rationale behind what I do.
Only a handful know slightly more about me, but then again, what they know is what I choose to tell them.

12) The character you love about yourself is: I care a lot for people I trust.

13) On the contrary, the character you hate about yourself is:
I care a lot for people I trust. And perhaps a lil too much.
Also, it's hard to keep me staying cos I can't set my heart on something for too long.

14) The most ideal person you wanna be is: Ideal is subjective. And then again, is there such thing as an ideal person?

15) Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you :
1. Chua
2. Jean
3. GL
4. Lewis (I demand that you start a blog now!)
5. Zikeng
6. Aaron (Uh, you could always use this quiz as your first proper post? XD)
7. Nic Yeo
8. Ash?
9. Timo?
10. Cheryl Ko

(Lol, you needn't do the quiz if you don't want cos I just tagged 10 people who comes to mind :D and as a blog)

16) Who is no. 6 having a relationship with? (Aaron)
You can try asking him :D

17) Is no. 9 a male or a female? (Timo)
Male (interesting question._.)

18) If no. 7 and no. 10 are together , will it be a good thing? (Nic and Cheryl)
Nah, no way. I'd prolly laugh my ass off or something.

19) How about no. 8 and 5 ? (Ash & Zikeng)
Hahah nah, same sex different schools. Besides 8 is with 2^^

20) What is no. 2 studying about? (Jean)
Almost everything that I am, except she has art and no history. And uh, she wanna study cats(:

21) when was the last time you had a chat with no. 3 ? (GL)
Today, via sms(: And uh if that doesn't count as a chat, it'd be somewhere two weeks ago at ECP.

22) What music band does no. 8 like? (Ash)
Lol honestly, no idea, but I remember him saying he doesn't like music with lyrics.

23) Does no. 1 have any siblings? (Chua)
Yups. Two elder sisters.

24) Will you woo no. 3? (GL)
Nope, not anytime soon(:

25) How bout no. 7? (Nic)
Hahah, no way, cos it'd be totally awkward(:

26) Is no. 10 single? (Cheryl)
You could try asking her :D

27) Whats the surname of no. 5? (Zikeng)
Ang. Angzk the manxz!

28) Whats the hobby of no. 4? (Lewis)
Uh, basketball, photography (I suppose so since you're pretty good at it?), running & learning how to cook? :D

29) Do no. 5 and 9 get along? (Zikeng & Timo)
Hahah, no idea :D since they ain't from the same schools to being with!

30) Where is no. 2 studying at? (Jean)
Same school :D

31) Talk something casually about no.1? (Chua)
She likes shopping? :D

32) Have you tried to develop feelings for no.8? (Ash)
Lmao, no way. :D

33) Where does no. 9 live at? (Timo)
Thomson Road, pretty close to me :D

34) What colour does no. 4 like? (Lewis)
Green green green. :D

35) Are no. 1 and 5 best friends? (Chua & Zikeng)
Hehe, nope, they don't know each other. :D

36) Does no. 7 like no.2 (Nic & Jean)
HAHAH. Nope, Jean didn't even know how Nic looked like till like, last year? Besides, they have different tastes, I believe.

37) How do you get to know no. 2? (Jean)
LOL, still remember first day of school? Yeah, that was when I got to know her & we made promises and all. Hahah kinda bring back good memories(:

38) Does no. 1 have any pets? (Chua)
Nope.

39) Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? (Nic)
LOLOL, welllllll, I did see his upper body before. :D

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Okay omg, this is like the first ever quiz I've done. And it sure took a great deal of time. ._.

2008-11-17T04:00:00.000-08:00

yo mates,

i haven't gotten down to posting proper w pictures bout awesome aussie (cos i'm kinda lazy to do so :D) but still, i miss the trip & the company of friends (or rather piggies) a lot! keep wishing the trip wld never end hehe.

so anywhoo, during this trip, many interesting firsts happened, like...

1) taking A380! (omg, the plane ride was reaaaally smooth :D)
2) how we miss chinese food so much that we solemnly swear that we wldn't touch fries for at least one month upon our return to singapore
3) playing cards & gaying arnd & playing murderer till late every night (okay, i'm new to this cos i've never stayed in a chalet before cos my parents never allowed me so! :( but i think the upcoming 205 chalet wld be different! :D)
4) speaking chinese!!! (omg, i swear that i spoke more chinese in this trip than i ever did in my entire life O: okay fine, that's an exaggeration. but i believe jibee heard me speak chinese more in this trip than i ever did in my last three years with her :D)
5) styling a guy's hair (and obviously screwing up hehe. poor zi keng!! gee, so much for being able to style my boyfriend's hair in the future :D)
6) knowing someone who sleeps with his eyes half open! (it's super duperly freaky okay! half the time i can't tell whether nigel is actually sleeping or not :D and i took like photos of him with that look on his face :D but nigel is totally nice lor! i always kick him while sleeping on the bus and he never snap at me before!)
7) seeing glow worms at night! (omg, it's one of the most romantic thing ever i swear. but the climb back up to civilization was totally TORTURING)
8) going into a cave! (i've alot of feelings for jenolan caves! especially since they are the ones that allowed jibee & i to go for this trip to begin with. and i totally soak in the atmosphere of being able to explore the cave we presented abt!! and while i was a lil sad initially cos i cldn't get to abseil, i soon got over it upon entering orient cave :D)
9) a bunch of us trying to stay up till 3 am to watch sunrise (this happened on the last night, and AHH it was one of the most tragic thing cos we were happily playing & snacking on doughnuts, cup noodles, watching hot guys & girls playing volleyball on tv, trying to stay up. and so, we very happily decided to take a short nap of 56 minutes. and we promptly fell asleep till 6am._. SHEESH)
10) spending the night on one king sized bed with 2 guys and another girl. (HAHAH my parents are so gonna skin me alive if ever they knew bout this, but still, that's one of my most precious memories bout this trip((: )
11) just eating, sleeping on the bus on the way to the attractions, walking arnd the attractions, sleeping on the bus on the way back to hotel, having dinner, going back to hotel room to have funfunfun, sleeping on hotel, eating and snacking. (zomg, that's the life of us :D never having to come out a single cent for food, never having to worry bout having nothing to eat. never having to worry bout having nothing to do!! THUS THE NICKNAME PIGGIES :D)

AHH. i'm still high about the trip :D
piggies, let's have a gathering during the hols horrx.
i keep wishing i never have to go back to reality, go back to being a human all over again :( (and collecting my results tmr._.)

w love,
whaipeng

2008-11-15T22:35:00.000-08:00

hooboy i'm home!
i ♥ my fellow piggies!! :D
there's so much to say, but hahah, you hafta be there in order to experience everything :D
shall blog & post up pictures soon(:

loves,
whaipeng

2008-11-06T00:00:00.000-08:00

hahah! the past two days have been totally cool :B

on tues, i met up with mr ultraman! okay, that's his nickname, and he's someone i indirectly knew from apcg :D
he was random and nice enough to go watch high school musical 3 with me!! as usual, i was late :$ sheesh, and i kinda lost my way :( but that's cos i only went to cineleisure once in my lifetime.

so anyway, he was nice enough to get the tickets first, then when i was there, we headed up to the arcade to kill time before going in. lololol, i got owned for time crisis :( and cos somehow, daytona was down for maintenance, we decided to play air hockey (is that what it's called oO) & we were so gay! omg, most of the time it was own goal! nevertheless, still "funny in a weird way" to quote him :D

so anywayyy, hsm3 wasn't as bad as some people described luh! though we burst out laughing cos we weren't used to them singing in the middle of a basketball game o_O and i noticed two (presumably, ardent fans of hsm) girls staring at me when i laughed =/ gasps :D ohoh, there's a severe flaw with the toilets in the cinemas!!! i couldn't tell which one was the ladies and which one was the gents in the dark-.-

then we went opposite to heeren. hahah there are like so many printed shirts there which were pretty witty and nice? but no $$. and there was a crumpler shop!! heh i wanna get a crumpler someday :D oh then we went to takashimaya where i bought my sis her bday present! hahah i was soooo smitten by the nici beanie babies there!! ahh so cute :D and the noisy cards were hilarious :D then we bought sushi and ate by the fountain and went home. hahah, i got home pretty late but it was an awesome day spent :D i wanna do skating someday man!

then the nxt day, i met up with aaron! :D hahah i got out of the house late due to some reason, so i met him like pretty late as well :$ gah. we initally wanted to play both squash and table tennis :D but in the end, we settled for just tt cos we were running outta time since we wanted to catch quantum of solace!! i borrowed 2 books on how to play tt, and we tried to imitate (by lying to ourselves^^) that we could spin like pros!!! in the end, we did manage to spin a lil luh i suppose :D awesome! but i still can't do forehand chop for nuts T_T

hahah, ytd was the first time i bathed faster than aaron!!! normally he'd have to wait for me to finish up, but i rushed through ytd within like 4-5 minutes? kinda reminds me of council camp :D

so anywhoo, we managed to catch qos!! we missed the first part, awww :( somehow when it comes to movies, we always miss the first part-.- like batman._. maybe that's cos he's stuck with a girl who has zero estimation of time ;DD

oh yesterday seems strangely like the day of firsts!! it was the first time we managed to see the bottom of a packet of large popcorn! normally, we'd have to throw it away =/
ohoh then i had some time left bef rushing home, so we went to the cheaper arcade.

ohmygoodness, we only changed 2$ each & we managed to play 4 games! how awesome is that!!! AND I OWNED AARON IN DAYTONA for the first time ever!! not just once, twice! gee, yesterday was indeed the day of firsts^^ better not say too much lest i get owned the next time i play with him._.

so anywhoo, gonna leave tonight... lol, kinda reminds me of two years ago, when i was supposed to go to aussie for a holiday as well with my family O: and that was after arts fest O: hahah how time flies, gee.

heh a bit nervous bout leaving tonight.. not that i'm scared of flying, but i just have this feeling that i'm leaving behind quite a bit, even though it's only for slightly more than a week-.-

wonders how nobel would fare for sports day... hope everything goes well! good luck to everyone who's running =)
wonders how bad my results would be...
wonders if anything would change...
wonders if you'd do anything funny...
wonders if history of last year would repeat itself...
somehow i wish my daddy could come along... hahah i know it's kinda bittersweet for him cos it's his wish to see me go aussie yet he'd die to go as well>< heh when i grow up, i wanna earn enough $$ so that he can drive a caravan around the whole of aussie after his retirement :D

heh and somehow i feel this is gonna be pretty different from apcg, even though both required me to stay away from home for about a week, since this is overseas duh. but it also means that i won't be able to sms you whenever i like it, or talk to you in the night when it gets lonely.
hahah i still remember apcg when i was so pissed off and although i was away from school for the week, you still manage to fill me in on what i was missing. obviously there's no way i can do that now, and i kinda realize that it's gonna be a long time before i see you again D:
aww man..

gosh, i'm starting to miss you already :(
i hope everything will be fine. it always seem that somehow it'll be okay or even better than before. just don't prove me wrong this time.

K of ♥!

2008-11-03T04:48:00.000-08:00

Fast fact for the day:
King of Hearts is the only king without a mustache.

Explanation:
Diamonds, clubs and spades are by association linked respectively with the corruption of wealth, war and death. In contrast, the heart as an organ is pure, open, undisguised - it does not wear artifice - hence the clean-shaven King of Hearts.

Awesome, I never exactly realized that before :D Saw this on one of my APCG's facil's blog :D

Cool aaron, that's you ;)

♥

2008-11-03T04:11:00.000-08:00

HOORAY!
I'M OFFICIALLY AN AARON!!!
as said by the original Great One himself XD, it means to enter the state of utter bliss and happiness after one's exams!!! LIBERATION, baby! :D

so anyhow, i think i screwed up the last two papers for the day O: but i'm kinda past caring luhh. why think so much when there's so much ahead to enjoy! hooboy, going out with mr ultraman tmr ;) then catching up with some closer friends hopefully on wed & a class bbq at night at Ms Teh's! then flying off on thurs! how frigging awesome is that :D we got our hawttt itinerary :B omg we're gna go to sooo many different places! =)
and anyways, i find that there ain't many nice shows this month! but ALOT are coming up in dec! yay this hols are gonna be fun-filled :P and i'm gonna miss quantum of solace! :( cos i'll be off by the time it comes out, grrr. nvm, if i'm lucky perhaps i can catch it in aussie^^

oh and yeah, squash@occ is really cheap + fun! great company on friday(: but pity ash and jean couldn't join us afterwards. hahah, aaron and i went to watch The Coffin! hahah it had low ratings, but i thought it wasn't thaaaat bad a horror show, given that most that i've watched have sucky endings. at least the ending of this show actually brought you back to the start :D
then on saturday, i went out with my family to shop! went to jumbo restaurant to celeb sis' bday & i got a new levi's jean(: i realized that there's a name for each model of jeans! and mine was patricia :D

AHHHHHHHHH :D i'm so happy(: and i sound so random._. lalala

2008-11-02T02:34:00.000-08:00

things are getting awesome :D
with the exception of trigo which is going to end tmr, anyhow.
shall post more once exams are over ^^

note to self: face it.
the heart's not in it but i don't know when i'll finally stop.

then there's you, yeah you come along with me when you had no one, when the people whom you counted on weren't around. then when everything was fine, you just dropped everything and went back there. that was ages ago, and i never did mention anything. maybe it's the onset of all the stress and bullshit that i see now. but hey, i ain't invisible. just cos i don't say my feelings openly/telling you/whatever means i don't feel anything.

disgusted

2008-10-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

Of all the people i ever know of & got close to, you're one of the very few i ever regretted knowing. I should have left it as it was, long time ago. Cos at least then, I had a huge amount of respect for you. Both of you.

mixed feelings

2008-10-22T19:10:00.000-07:00

why do that?
what else has been said?
selfish much?

what the hell.
it's still such a grey area, and i'm still being such a fool.
but finally, i've learnt.

happy birthday aaron!(:

2008-10-20T20:03:00.001-07:00

To AARON,

Here's to the times when I was such a wreck,
And you were there hearing me out, not telling me what to do,

Here's to the times when there's no one to go to,
And yet you showed me the way & even stayed through,

Here's to the long phone calls we had,
They always manage to cheer me up cos you never fail to say the right words,

Here's to the weekly wednesday lunches & tt time we have this term,
It's one of the very few things I can look forward to,

Here's to the times we had disagreements,
And you are still as forgiving as ever & we said our sorrys & goodnights and everything became fine the next day,

Here's to the times we still sat together in class last year,
And we talked, gossiped, play cards amongst so many other wild things we did,

Here's to the times when we laughed till we cried,
There is really none like you who can make me laugh that hard,

Here's to the times where we were so frantic (especially before gavel hoho),
Yet just having you beside me being optimistic and making jokes certainly makes the situation less scary and more light-hearted,

Here's to that classic maths class,
What the end result was to the poor thingys still hold true(:

Here's to the friendship we have,
It's like no other and there's so much more I can say about the memories we've had all this time,
But those are not important cos there's so much that's yet to come(:

& Finally here's to YOU,
My bestest best bestie, hubby, 老公，弟弟, the king of my heart (you'll find out why soon enough^^),

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)
You're finally 15!

♥

of strawberry smiles;

2008-10-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

Sometimes love just ain't enough by Patty Smithe

Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

pretty lovely song(: thanks bs! other nice songs i've been listening to these days are We Cry and The Man Who Can't be Moved (both by The Script). Hahah those three songs have lyrics which are pretty meaningful(:

so anywhoo, tday went pretty well(: after history, seo youn kindly loaned me her laptop and i slacked for one hour waiting for ron. omg, we played Word Challenge on facebook &&&&&& i'm so proud to say I SHATTERED MY RECORD OF 6000+++!!! and it's currently 9971 now i think, and even though it's a soooooooo little compared to my cousin, cleo & cheryl chong D:
then, rahul, weiren & utkarsh decided to be gay and went to youtube and showed us some russel peters clips. and we ended up laughing & an hour FLEW past._.

then after that, ron & i rushed to westmall for sakae!! LOL, it was like a year ago, celebrating his bday before exams._. but that was with cheeying hahah. so anyway, sakae added so much freebies for their buffet!!! to make it so much more attractive hahah(: at first we used the computer system, then after waiting for like 209309574354035 minutes, we cldn't stand it, so we decided to ask the waitress what's wrong. then we found out that the computer system was not working that day._. grrr.
so we ordered alot through her, and it was kinda embarrassing luh D: hahah but who cares XD but they sort of jumbled up my orders yknow :( and the sushi i ordered never came. oh oh and one of the freebies was a complimentary red plate! needless to say, we both ordered salmon sashimi =) wowow, what a difference from the normal thin pieces they use in their sushi._. then we decided to be adventurous and ordered this new salmon dish! it turned out to be yucky D: cos it was like fried salmon which was chilled._. aaron's face was CLASSIC when he first tried it :D aww, too bad no pictures that time :D cos there was this policy of no wastage of food, we had to finish up the yucky salmon dish. so we decided to play a word game, and the loser had to eat a piece of salmon. sadly i lost like 3-1 D: then in the end, when it was almost finished, we decided to just hide the remaining pieces under those random pieces of lettuce and cucumber shreds hehe :D kinda reminded me of the time cleo, her sister and i went to sakae^^
ohoh and there was this additional strawberry smiles? LOL the guy cldn't enunciate properly and we took like 5 times before we understood what he meant. in that instant, it reminded me of the batman spoof video gee =/ and it was super sour in the end._. peach mochi is still da best(:

anyway, we were greedy piggies and we went to subway afterwards to get cookies!!!!(: aaron got three for me hoho :D and i realized he shldn't have gotten us three each, cos we were sho full!!

so yay, tday went so well(: and let's hope everything will go well for the days to come!! especially since exams are coming D:

love,
whaipeng(:

p.s. go on guessing what it is ;)

it's kinda scary that it seems that everyone knows that their direction in life, while i can't seem to figure it out. and i don't even know if i can make it for the direction i wanna go. i feel so lost._. but yeah i saw the pm of one of the apcg friends! "God will make a way even when there seem to be none" how true indeed. i just hope everything will work out fine(: and i realized that i won't ever regret my decision whatever it is, if i just make good in what i chose & put in the effort for it.
but i'm still lost.

2008-10-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

i've made so many mistakes within the past year, fell from grace, learnt them the hard way by picking myself up right from rock bottom. twice, it has come back to the same old thing i've always been wanting and looking out for.

some things just don't change; just like how patience has never been my strongest virtue (and i don't foresee it to be anytime soon), you never do change either.

and here i am wondering, if it's a good or bad thing.

september 30th!

2008-09-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

wake me up when september ends

how apt :D
yeah next month's the holy tests + exams spam. time to wake up, buck up and run this last lap(: there's just so many things to look forward to, but of course i've this fear that i won't be able to enjoy myself if i screw my exams up.

but on the brighter note, i just realized that there are so many october babies!(:

tgif!

2008-09-26T07:39:00.000-07:00

Today was such a bummer.

Came to school late cos it was raining so heavily. But it was cute when ron & I sent the same msg to each other to listen out for morning annoucements=-=, then tio caught playing cards, like wth. I should learn from my mistake this time, I feel like saying I'd swear off cards for a month but seoyoun helped to reduce the sentence to only playing cards at student lounge. Fine :D Then yadayada.

But TGIF(: at least I get to sleep late tmr(: though there's like a thousand of projects + homework left undone. Thankfully there's no tests next week! Though on the killer test spam week, there's like, functions + chem + mech II tests, like zomg, all the subjects that kills me :(

Goodluck to those people who are having EOYs now!! I can't believe that when the whole world's having holidays, here we are mugging T_T

Still, there are so many things to look forward to after exams! :D and so I'm totally counting on that(: YAY.

Hehe, and I wanna get a new cardigan before I go to aussie(:

Ahh, I believe God is telling seoyoun & I not to go out and slack tmr T_T I wanna catch the midnight batman show with her again(:

Okay, I oughta focus on my work now. Buh byes(:

chiongggg,
love
whaipeng(:

Yeah, I guess it's high time we do it anyways. There ain't any reasons left to stay this time, first year it was him who made me stay, second year it was the friendship that made me not want to leave lest I regretted, then for the third year, you managed to convince me to stay, and only now I realized, it was a mistake to. But hey, no regrets, it taught me more than I ever would, it showed me so much, and brought me closer to others and hey, just realized it made me talk to ron more (after the random family tree thing). Now I just hope I can leave. I'm not sure where I can go, but hell, that will come later.

2008-09-24T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hi all!

Okay, I decided to be random & changed back to blogger cos I found this rather cool skin which reminded me of livejournal & xanga, yet I've always hesitated bout using those cos I didn't get how they work, so there :D And in any case, this skin would be it till I find something else.

In any case, today turned out to be a pretty good day! I was like fretting over thermod w/s yesterday cos there were some questions I wasn't too sure of, but during english, jibee pointed out to me what I've missed out & VOILA, I finished it up during trigo :D

Then there was the Council Nomination, and before we went into the hall, Mr LCS came up to ask when we could have class dinner tgth since it's been a long time since last semester that he talked to us as a class. Lol, I think he's a very sweet teacher =) Hope he teaches us next year again(:

So anywhoo, I was assigned to 201 who were really cooperative during the collection of votes! I guess there was some sort of hooha during the Q&A session. And together with the incident of the mysterious staff meeting :O which I shall not speculate about since I only have a slightest inkling bout it :D

After that, ronron & I went to tt in the hall for awhile(: at first it was pretty scary cos there was like nobody with us in the hall, and it seemed sorta creepy-.- okay, so anyway, we set up our table and played for awhile, then in came bernard and ernest. Hahah, after awhile, they took our bats and played. Must admit, bernard is not bad!! Like, omg, his forehand is like good.

Then after that, ronron & I left school for westmall initially, cos we wanted to eat subway. Yay, I love it when there's no mpp and when he has no malay(: But in the end, we went to IMM cos there were more choices of food there hoho. OHOH, I forgot to mention, there was this HOTHOTHOT guy on the bus, who was diagonally opposite me, and whenever I talked to ron, I would be able to see him outta the corner of my eyes. But that's besides the point XD

When we were there, we settled on Ajisen Ramen(: the set lunch was pretty worth it & it wasn't that bad! We were extremely full after that-.- and aaron's cha shu ramen looked like the real deal, even though it sure doesn't sound so-.-

Then then, cos I was a greedy piggie (not glutton, like what maxx said! it's too negative-sounding hehe) and since the original intention was to have subway cookies anyways, so ron & I went to get :D

Then we went to Giant to get his bottlecap, but we couldn't find any. Oh btw, I feel that Giant should change their sound system. When they made an annoucement, NOTHING could be heard cos it was waaay too muffled-.-

Then after that, we went to Popular to get my fave pen!! Omg I got cheated the last time I bought at JP :( I didn't know they came in the value pack with one free refill T_T but anyway, I'm happy now cos I've like 5 of that pen(: it should last till exams are over.

After that, I went looking for Action City cos I wanted to show ronron the squishy Breadou! But nooo, I couldn't find any :( and just as I wanted to buy luh zzz.

Then we decided to be guai and go home(: so we walked across the path and back to the MRT station. :D

Anywayyy, my smses are about to bust again T_T (I only sent a record low of 700+ last month!) though this time I'm setting the max as 900, which leaves me with less than 100 till next Wed! Over the span of two days, maxx pointed out that we've sent more than 100++ smses, zomg. Not bad(:

Ahhh, what a wonderful day it is(: though I'm not exactly looking forward to chem quizz and the weekends cos of all the projects :(

love,
whaipeng♥

i wonder.